Re: Taugenichts's story - (pic update 10/21/07 on page 12)
Tauge,
I think that, even you, realize how innane your observations are. You know deep-down that you're acting childish, and that factors into your low self-esteem. There are simple ways to improve your life, man, and wallowing in your self-deprecating manner denies you some happiness. I just think that you're too scared, man. Scared of rejection... whatever.
I'll let you in on one of the ways I cope with this life. Call it escapism, if you will:
I am prepping myself to get involved in the publication business. Therefore, anything with printed words arrouses my interests. So... I READ a lot! I read more nonfiction than anything, but I have a strange affection for ficiton. I like to read stories where I can relate to the characters. I IDENTIFY something major in the character's life, then seek meaning from it. It's called symbolism.
Look at Ernest Hemingway's the Old Man and the Sea. What does that fish represent? Materialism, faith, desire, self-sacrifice...? Look at J.R.R. Tolkien's Lord of the Rings-- what does that ring mean? Is it a burden that we all carry?
You see, Tauge, a lot of these fictional characters, throughout time, have made bigger impacts on our lives than other humans do. Even some religious icons, as far as I'm concerned, arefictional, yet they inspire many to live fulfilling lives. They ignite something in us. Do you need inspiration? If so, then try reading a little bit.