I find that everything is joyless, meaningless, unsatisfying because of my hair loss. Nothing matters anymore like life is over and i died and just my ghost is living. If i go out i see nearly everyone with hair at my age or people at their 20's they have no hair loss and nothing to worry about and no hair lose is obvious unless someone is over 30. Even being a hermit is a reminder of hair loss everywhere on the internet every movie every TV show reminds me that i'm less than a person that it's odd and unnatural to lose your hair especially at a young age, so i lost my interest in everything now either it's going out or even stay at my room to entertain myself a bit and escape reality. I don't know what to do anymore hair loss is a curse. I was diagnosed with depression before my hair loss now imagine how my depression have become after male pattern baldness. It's unbearable. I just wish i could stay in my room until i die with food to survive, but i'll eventually be forced to go out to work and watch people everyday make fun of me while they enjoy their youth and i'm friendless, sexless, lifeless and full of depression and mental illnesses that's the youth that awaits for me. My teenage years was already destroyed by depression and other fucked up problems now the rest of my life is ruined until i'm like 35 and people stop making fun of me, but i doubt that i'll be even a sane person then.
