For some time I have had a keen interest in HRT due to its beneficial effects on hair and skin. I also admire the femboy aesthetic, which is why I am not too worried about feminizing effects per se with the possible exception of gyno. I am ok with breast growth so long as it can be adequately concealed with clothing, although my understanding is that it is very hard to control their development. I am mostly concerned about HRT's effects on my metabolism, functional strength, personality, and mental health. I have read that certain hormonal medications(specifically CPA) can contribute to unwanted weight gain through its effects on testosterone and bodily metabolism of fat(
https://transfemscience.org/articles/hormones-fat-metabolism/). As someone who is healthy, fit, and lean, the last thing I want to do is jeopardize my body in any way that contributes to long term obesity and heart disease.
I also rely a lot on my strength to accomplish daily tasks both at home and work, so if possible I would prefer to keep most of my strength on an HRT protocol. But based on what I read online, I think that goal may be unrealistic since most people report a significant reduction of both muscle mass and strength. I do not mind losing some muscle since my main goal is to continue to slim down, but I do not want to become weak and frail and risk losing my job and livelihood as a result. And I am not sure how I would cope with mood swings. Even though I am generally resilient when it comes to dealing with life's problems, I sometimes get overwhelmed by the stress I have to put up with everyday. I think the extra emotional sensitivity associated with HRT would prove too much for me to handle in conjunction with the daily stressors I am constantly exposed to. How do you manage your emotions while on HRT?
Also, if I said anything that contradicts your understanding of the facts, please let me know and I will reconsider my knowledge of the subject.