Damn man, sounds like it's hitting you pretty hard

This truly is a f***ed up disease.
It does get easier to accept as time goes by, but it affected me (and still does) a massive amount.
Your loss doesn't look very bad, it's certainly salvageable. Have you tried Toppik?
Even NW1's can look like they are thinning with wet hair.
Also, do you have any pictures with your hair very short, and also a little longer?
Also, I went to see my doctor as it bothered me a lot and they put me first off on Citalopram, then on Amitryptiline. They made me see a shrink too. It did help a little, but I found that the medical profession just don't understand. They think people who are down about going bald are, well, unusual. Truth is, it is devastating for a young guy to go through.