I Wonder Why Haven't I Killed Myself Yet.

[Stanx22]

This is getting ridiculous. It has been less than 2 weeks since i posted my first thread and since then my hair have been thinning rapidly. It's too fast and unbelievable. I'm now going through the first stages of diffuse thinning. Good to be one of the few ones who become Norwood 7 by 19. Why the f*** does this happen to me i never wanted to be bald, but at least after the university why do i have to be bald at 19 or 20 i have enough shitty genetics to care about already, but no that's not enough i have to be completely bald by 19 and stay in my house forever like a hideous monster. I'm too depressed that i have no sex drive now, i have no emotions, i have no soul, i have nothing inside me just emptiness and despair. I'm actually surprised that i can endure this and cope with it because my life and problems no sane human being in his 20's or 30's can endure only a few. I know what will happen i'll get called whiny little sl*t who complains and can't shut the f*** up, but i don't give a f*** because i have every right to complain.

Physically : My face has black acne that hasn't gone for 10 years now, crooked teeth, asymmetrical face, big forehead, receding hairline, thinning hair, terrible head shape so i can't shave my head.
My physique : I'm too short with very short, very tiny little hands and feet and very short fingers, very short arms and legs and very long torso and long neck, skinny-fat body type. Everyone tells me that i look like a midget because of my physique and i walk like them.

Socially : I have 0 friends and live in a third world country and all my life i've been bullied and hated since i was born no matter what i do or say i'll be hated if i'm good or bad funny or not i'm automatically hated there's no point in trying anymore. I live like a hermit now i don't ever leave my room. And the girlfriend thing is out of the question i've never talked to a girl and never will because i'll be never be good enough or normal i have to accept loneliness and live with it because i have no choice.

Mentally : Depression since i was 14, BDD, OCD, Depersonalization, terrible brain fog for 10 months now makes me unable to focus on anything or concentrate and shitty memory that sometimes i can't remember what i was thinking 5 seconds ago and i have to study 10x more than the average student so i can remember the information i've studied. Even intelligence the only good trait that i possessed once has been taken from me by brain fog and the shitty memory, so i have nothing now. I'm completely worthless subhuman.

All of these things aren't enough i have to be slick bald by 19 or 20 so the misery will be maximum. I wish i could cry, but i can't even cry because i don't feel anything i'm incapable of feeling anything. What a sad existence that i have.

 

[Nick1990]

Damn I thought I had it bad! Well we are all balding so we feels ya on that! I was losing my hair at 17 and managed to cover it for about 10 years with nanogen, depending on how its thinning and if you can control the loss you might be able to get away with it for a bit longer,

Or you could use the usual stuff to prevent hair loss, finasteride min nizoral etc

It sounds like your body is in very bad condition overall/ unhealthy... Try and eat healthy and go to the gym do 30 mins or so on the treadmill/ crosstrainer and lift some weights you will be surprised how it may change your perception of life and will no doubt help with your depression and help build confidence.

I went through a depressive phase as well, no friends, balding skinny, plus got a dent in my chest!! But yeah theres other people with so many more problems, just be grateful for what you have, hands to type, eyes to see? Many would love to be in your position right now.

You can change your reality if you put your mind to it.

 

[Crystalclear12]

Seek psychiatric help.

 

[hollow11]

^ seriously though, you should talk with someone about it. Having suicide thoughts is not something you should hide from your loved ones. Things wont always be as bad, so try thinking about your future that might and most likely will be brighter.

@Nick1990 I used to have that dent as well, i've overcome it with a lot of swimming and bench press/dips.
Did yours improve?

 

[Nick1990]

^ seriously though, you should talk with someone about it. Having suicide thoughts is not something you should hide from your loved ones. Things wont always be as bad, so try thinking about your future that might and most likely will be brighter.

@Nick1990 I used to have that dent as well, i've overcome it with a lot of swimming and bench press/dips.
Did yours improve?

Lol what are the odds! Nah ive still got it had it since I was 14/15 where it developed its asymmetric started causing some issues recently though, doing my head in! I went for a vacuum bell treatment at a specialist one half hour session it was good for up to a year but its coming back to being problematic recently!

I have been thinking to start doing it but it will probably strengthen the rib cage Id have though and make it less flexible to change which is what I dont want plus when I start increasin my pec size it looks uneven, need to try and figure out how to build the inner pec to make it look more flat

 

[Medina]

Life is precious. PM me if you ever want to talk.

You got a friend in me!

 

[Razzabo]

You have options man.

 

[Stanx22]

^ seriously though, you should talk with someone about it. Having suicide thoughts is not something you should hide from your loved ones. Things wont always be as bad, so try thinking about your future that might and most likely will be brighter.

@Nick1990 I used to have that dent as well, i've overcome it with a lot of swimming and bench press/dips.
Did yours improve?

I have no one to talk to because no one cares about me that's why i vent here.

 

[hollow11]

Lol what are the odds! Nah ive still got it had it since I was 14/15 where it developed its asymmetric started causing some issues recently though, doing my head in! I went for a vacuum bell treatment at a specialist one half hour session it was good for up to a year but its coming back to being problematic recently!

I have been thinking to start doing it but it will probably strengthen the rib cage Id have though and make it less flexible to change which is what I dont want plus when I start increasin my pec size it looks uneven, need to try and figure out how to build the inner pec to make it look more flat

swimming and pull ups
weight lifting will make it more uneven
when i was 14 i had a 5% curve on my spine because of that sh*t and they told me it's gonna get worse if i dont start working out..tbh that was my only motivation to workout, lol. Mine was uneven as well, right part of my chest looked more popped up than the left one

 

[Stanx22]

Damn I thought I had it bad! Well we are all balding so we feels ya on that! I was losing my hair at 17 and managed to cover it for about 10 years with nanogen, depending on how its thinning and if you can control the loss you might be able to get away with it for a bit longer,

Or you could use the usual stuff to prevent hair loss, finasteride min nizoral etc

It sounds like your body is in very bad condition overall/ unhealthy... Try and eat healthy and go to the gym do 30 mins or so on the treadmill/ crosstrainer and lift some weights you will be surprised how it may change your perception of life and will no doubt help with your depression and help build confidence.

I went through a depressive phase as well, no friends, balding skinny, plus got a dent in my chest!! But yeah theres other people with so many more problems, just be grateful for what you have, hands to type, eyes to see? Many would love to be in your position right now.

You can change your reality if you put your mind to it.

My body is healthy and strong, but it's in a weird shape. And who would want to be in my position ? Want to trade positions ?

 

[hollow11]

I have no one to talk to because no one cares about me that's why i vent here.

trust me, somebody cares
i dont know you personally so i cant tell but im sure youre priceless to somebody, think about your family for example

 

[CopeForLife]

This is getting ridiculous. It has been less than 2 weeks since i posted my first thread and since then my hair have been thinning rapidly. It's too fast and unbelievable. I'm now going through the first stages of diffuse thinning. Good to be one of the few ones who become Norwood 7 by 19. Why the f*** does this happen to me i never wanted to be bald, but at least after the university why do i have to be bald at 19 or 20 i have enough shitty genetics to care about already, but no that's not enough i have to be completely bald by 19 and stay in my house forever like a hideous monster. I'm too depressed that i have no sex drive now, i have no emotions, i have no soul, i have nothing inside me just emptiness and despair. I'm actually surprised that i can endure this and cope with it because my life and problems no sane human being in his 20's or 30's can endure only a few. I know what will happen i'll get called whiny little sl*t who complains and can't shut the f*** up, but i don't give a f*** because i have every right to complain.

Physically : My face has black acne that hasn't gone for 10 years now, crooked teeth, asymmetrical face, big forehead, receding hairline, thinning hair, terrible head shape so i can't shave my head.
My physique : I'm too short with very short, very tiny little hands and feet and very short fingers, very short arms and legs and very long torso and long neck, skinny-fat body type. Everyone tells me that i look like a midget because of my physique and i walk like them.

Socially : I have 0 friends and live in a third world country and all my life i've been bullied and hated since i was born no matter what i do or say i'll be hated if i'm good or bad funny or not i'm automatically hated there's no point in trying anymore. I live like a hermit now i don't ever leave my room. And the girlfriend thing is out of the question i've never talked to a girl and never will because i'll be never be good enough or normal i have to accept loneliness and live with it because i have no choice.

Mentally : Depression since i was 14, BDD, OCD, Depersonalization, terrible brain fog for 10 months now makes me unable to focus on anything or concentrate and shitty memory that sometimes i can't remember what i was thinking 5 seconds ago and i have to study 10x more than the average student so i can remember the information i've studied. Even intelligence the only good trait that i possessed once has been taken from me by brain fog and the shitty memory, so i have nothing now. I'm completely worthless subhuman.

All of these things aren't enough i have to be slick bald by 19 or 20 so the misery will be maximum. I wish i could cry, but i can't even cry because i don't feel anything i'm incapable of feeling anything. What a sad existence that i have.

Welcome to the Impact section, mate

https://www.hairlosstalk.com/interact/forums/the-impact-of-hair-loss.28/

 

[Stanx22]

trust me, somebody cares
i dont know you personally so i cant tell but im sure youre priceless to somebody, think about your family for example

My family loves me, but they don't care about these things. They think that i'm a pussy and need to man up because society expects men to have no feelings.

 

[Stanx22]

Welcome to the Impact section, mate

https://www.hairlosstalk.com/interact/forums/the-impact-of-hair-loss.28/

Thanks dude i really wanted a section to vent in freely because i've always thought that i'm bothering people on here.

 

[Nick1990]

swimming and pull ups
weight lifting will make it more uneven
when i was 14 i had a 5% curve on my spine because of that sh*t and they told me it's gonna get worse if i dont start working out..tbh that was my only motivation to workout, lol. Mine was uneven as well, right part of my chest looked more popped up than the left one

Damn, yeah my doctor was a proper knob he told me at age 14 this is just cosmetic.. Im 27 so I dunno I shall try pull ups and swimming hopefully it helps

 

[CopeForLife]

Thanks dude i really wanted a section to vent in freely because i've always thought that i'm bothering people on here.

you won't bother anyone on Impact section... be caution because it's no way back from that ocean ranting and depressed baldcels

 

[Stanx22]

you won't bother anyone on Impact section... be caution because it's no way back from that ocean ranting and depressed baldcels

I've been depressed for as long as i can remember, but i'm new to the baldcel thing. It's actually a good thing to see understanding people on here that i can relate to, like you and dante.

 

[Nick1990]

My body is healthy and strong, but it's in a weird shape. And who would want to be in my position ? Want to trade positions ?

How about guys with no legs / arms / disfigured... Blind..

As long as your have your health your good, and I think my body is healthy and strong as well but its far from it! When I work out and eat right and focus I feel amazing, and trust me I aint no catch of the day myself!

End of the day there's loads of people with issues mate, it is what it is, I was so parrow with hair loss and I still am scared even though I have wispy hair waving around on my head. Im still in denial and want to keep my hair, but I know my days are numbered. What am I gonna do? Kill myself or shave that b**ch off and move on. Obviously il explore other treatments hair transplants, prp treatments etc etc... But if they fail well yeah then f*** it its over!

Whatever happens happens, you cant dwell on it, and yeah basic law of attraction what you think you become and you will attract into your life, do yourself a favour and buy a copy of the secret.

 

[CopeForLife]

How about guys with no legs / arms / disfigured... Blind..

As long as your have your health your good, and I think my body is healthy and strong as well but its far from it! When I work out and eat right and focus I feel amazing, and trust me I aint no catch of the day myself!

End of the day there's loads of people with issues mate, it is what it is, I was so parrow with hair loss and I still am scared even though I have wispy hair waving around on my head. Im still in denial and want to keep my hair, but I know my days are numbered. What am I gonna do? Kill myself or shave that b**ch off and move on. Obviously il explore other treatments hair transplants, prp treatments etc etc... But if they fail well yeah then f*** it its over!

Whatever happens happens, you cant dwell on it, and yeah basic law of attraction what you think you become and you will attract into your life, do yourself a favour and buy a copy of the secret.

cope

you can shave it off as you said and "move on" but you will be a cripple in looks department

 

[CopeForLife]

I've been depressed for as long as i can remember, but i'm new to the baldcel thing. It's actually a good thing to see understanding people on here that i can relate to, like you and dante.

dante is genuine great guy