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I know I know.
There are so many people worse off than me. I could of been born disabled, a midget, with cancer etc etc.
However, knowing this just doesn't make me feel any better.
I can't get over how bad my genetics are.
I'm below average height, receding hairline, NATURALLY PALE and dark circles under my eyes. My face is also very average with little/no jawline.
People in High School used to say things like 'you look like you're on drugs' or 'you look like a ghost'.
Fortunately (unfortunately) i got "red pilled" at a very early age (16). During this time, i would often visit the 'misc' forum (body building forum). When i was 16 there was this 'troll' who would post things such as 'face is everything' , 'if you're ugly you're fucked' etc. I was very impressionable at this time. As i went to parties i started noticing how easy it was for my tall good looking friends to get girls. I started realising how ugly i was.
Fast forward a few years later and i began attempting everything i could to make myself more attractive. I cut to very very low body fat (sub 10%). I tanned, dressed well, changed my hair style (when i had hair) etc.
All of a sudden i noticed such a difference.
God, how people treated you differently.
- People and women would generally always smile at you
- People would seem more lenient to you
- Women would make eye contact with you and have a look of attraction in their eyes
- People were just generally nicer to you
- Women seemed happy that you were in their company.
Unfortunately for me, this was unsustainable. I started working full time and have lost my looks.
i look like my old high school self.
When i make eye contact with women they act as if i smell bad.
People no longer treat me well.
Women act as if i have a disease.
I feel so depressed.
Ugly people will never understand how easy life is being good looking. This isn't a joke.
I know people will say 'i bet your personalty changed, and you were more confident when you were good looking'. This is 100% bull sh*t. Because i would fast for hours and hardly eat, i was actually very anxious and not very social (social anxiety).
I'm a lot better socially now yet people treat me like chit and women hate me.
It's farked. I can't stop thinking about this and being depressed about this.
What can i do?
There are so many people worse off than me. I could of been born disabled, a midget, with cancer etc etc.
However, knowing this just doesn't make me feel any better.
I can't get over how bad my genetics are.
I'm below average height, receding hairline, NATURALLY PALE and dark circles under my eyes. My face is also very average with little/no jawline.
People in High School used to say things like 'you look like you're on drugs' or 'you look like a ghost'.
Fortunately (unfortunately) i got "red pilled" at a very early age (16). During this time, i would often visit the 'misc' forum (body building forum). When i was 16 there was this 'troll' who would post things such as 'face is everything' , 'if you're ugly you're fucked' etc. I was very impressionable at this time. As i went to parties i started noticing how easy it was for my tall good looking friends to get girls. I started realising how ugly i was.
Fast forward a few years later and i began attempting everything i could to make myself more attractive. I cut to very very low body fat (sub 10%). I tanned, dressed well, changed my hair style (when i had hair) etc.
All of a sudden i noticed such a difference.
God, how people treated you differently.
- People and women would generally always smile at you
- People would seem more lenient to you
- Women would make eye contact with you and have a look of attraction in their eyes
- People were just generally nicer to you
- Women seemed happy that you were in their company.
Unfortunately for me, this was unsustainable. I started working full time and have lost my looks.
i look like my old high school self.
When i make eye contact with women they act as if i smell bad.
People no longer treat me well.
Women act as if i have a disease.
I feel so depressed.
Ugly people will never understand how easy life is being good looking. This isn't a joke.
I know people will say 'i bet your personalty changed, and you were more confident when you were good looking'. This is 100% bull sh*t. Because i would fast for hours and hardly eat, i was actually very anxious and not very social (social anxiety).
I'm a lot better socially now yet people treat me like chit and women hate me.
It's farked. I can't stop thinking about this and being depressed about this.
What can i do?
