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I just need to vent. I went on vacation over Memorial Day weekend. We got a picture of all the “kids” meaning all the offspring of my mom and her siblings, so people anywhere from age 15 to early 30s. I myself am early 20s.
I was easily the ugliest person in the picture, I was absolutely shocked by it. I have a couple younger cousins that I haven’t seen in a year or so, I figure I’d look better than them because sometimes kids will have that early puberty ugliness before they “grow into their face”. Not even close.
My heart sank when I saw the picture, I couldn’t believe I was seriously that ugly. I went through all the stages,
“Holy sh*t, I look horrible”
“This can’t be, it must just be this picture where I look like that, I can’t always look that ugly”
“Wait, everyone else looks exactly like they do in real life”
“I never want to leave my room again”
I looked nothing like what I see in the mirror. My hairline looked awful, my forehead looked huge in comparison to the rest of my face, and because my temple peaks receded away it makes my forehead look comically wide. I was looking slightly down and my chin was basically meshed into my neck. I looked really pale and the corners of my mouth were downturned like a f*****g monster.
I have absolutely no doubt why I have troubles with women now, it’s 100% the way I look. I look older than my late 20s brother, he doesn’t have saggy skin or a receding hairline somehow, and what do you know, he was getting attention from women when we went out. f*** this bullshit, it’s just not fair. I don’t know how people live with this reality, zero women in my life have ever expressed interest or made sustained eye contact with me. This weekend I witnessed a girl stare at my brother and continue staring at him (and even smile at him) when he saw her. How the f*** am I supposed to go on knowing that’s never, ever going to happen to me for reasons totally out of my control? She didn’t know jack sh*t about his personality when she stared at him.
I workout, I eat healthy, I get enough water and sleep, and I look like a monster in the prime of my life. f*** this man. At least nobody will ever have to suffer with the genes that make me ugly because there’s a zero percent chance anyone will want to reproduce with me. All the good aspects of me are trapped behind my monstrously ugly face.
I was easily the ugliest person in the picture, I was absolutely shocked by it. I have a couple younger cousins that I haven’t seen in a year or so, I figure I’d look better than them because sometimes kids will have that early puberty ugliness before they “grow into their face”. Not even close.
My heart sank when I saw the picture, I couldn’t believe I was seriously that ugly. I went through all the stages,
“Holy sh*t, I look horrible”
“This can’t be, it must just be this picture where I look like that, I can’t always look that ugly”
“Wait, everyone else looks exactly like they do in real life”
“I never want to leave my room again”
I looked nothing like what I see in the mirror. My hairline looked awful, my forehead looked huge in comparison to the rest of my face, and because my temple peaks receded away it makes my forehead look comically wide. I was looking slightly down and my chin was basically meshed into my neck. I looked really pale and the corners of my mouth were downturned like a f*****g monster.
I have absolutely no doubt why I have troubles with women now, it’s 100% the way I look. I look older than my late 20s brother, he doesn’t have saggy skin or a receding hairline somehow, and what do you know, he was getting attention from women when we went out. f*** this bullshit, it’s just not fair. I don’t know how people live with this reality, zero women in my life have ever expressed interest or made sustained eye contact with me. This weekend I witnessed a girl stare at my brother and continue staring at him (and even smile at him) when he saw her. How the f*** am I supposed to go on knowing that’s never, ever going to happen to me for reasons totally out of my control? She didn’t know jack sh*t about his personality when she stared at him.
I workout, I eat healthy, I get enough water and sleep, and I look like a monster in the prime of my life. f*** this man. At least nobody will ever have to suffer with the genes that make me ugly because there’s a zero percent chance anyone will want to reproduce with me. All the good aspects of me are trapped behind my monstrously ugly face.