I'm not a professional athlete, why should I care about muscle loss? Or do you think it will make you so weak that you won't be able to get out of bed? By the way, I didn't lose any muscle.
Not that. Even cycling uphill felt more exhausting on E. If I were to be attacked by a dog (which is not totally uncommon and I'm not envisioning an "end of world" scenario), then I'd be more f*cked. I'd be slower, weaker. Yes, you might say pepper spray, whatever.
Surgery. Even without it I have no problems. You won't have big breasts. When I have the operation, I can forget about this forever.
Every amount of breast is visible under a shirt. You will still regain some fat, even after mastectomy. You can't have yearly surgery, that's not sustainable.
I've looked different throughout my life. This affects not only your relationships with people, but also your self-esteem. Judging by what you say, you have a lot of depression and disappointment ahead of you. Good luck.
I wonder if I can base my self-esteem on the skills I have. People's compliment never feel sincere to me (this is one of my issues) so I am not sure what better looks would give me.
Testosterone causes permanent changes in the brain while you are in the womb. I'm talking about prenatal testosterone. We have passed this stage + puberty, in our case estradiol is not capable of making you a completely different person.
I can tell you that you become so "tamed" its brutal. I'd say that state on E feels calmer (what I experienced). If I remember correctly, Sapolsky wrote about this how testosterone polarizes. Not just prenatally.
I've been doing this for three years now. What do you say to this? Are you saying that I'm not a man? Okay, I don't give a damn.
You cannot fulfil the social role of a man, but you are not a woman. I don't mean this as an insult, its something I think you are also aware of. If you live in a very progressive and liberal country it might work out for you. I don't live in such a country and my values are different. If I chose E, I'd let go of the strength, drive and I'd become passive, feminine. That would be a disaster in terms of society (job, friends, family, relationship).
E also destroys my ability to get hard, I wouldn't be able to perform in bed. I don't buy that it keeps working for everyone. What woman would want such a person?
I never had any muscle to begin with.
Even those non-existant male muscles is like much stronger you can ever have on E.
I actually don't care about my gender and some people get confused and call me a girl but that's fine,
You must live in a very progressive area.
if they keep getting confused I'll just fully transition and everything will be easier.
You just admitted there is no "male on estrogen", because you get into an in-between phase no one really comprehends.
I can never be a real man due to my stunted bone development during puberty from an eating disorder anyway
Sorry to hear that. I guess that means you'd take E anyway regardless of hair?
