You should start looking at your life more positively.
On the personnality level:
Everything you've mentionned is about women:
you are afraid of balding because you (think) you won't be attractive, you think you are ugly (but it could be untrue) and even if you are ugly, life isn't over. Women aren't the only thing to live for bro, go work, get money, learn new skills and enjoy life with your friends (or alone).
You should either:
- Improve yourself to get women
- Don't give a f*** and enjoy life
Your choice.
On the hair loss level:
You should try treatments if you really wanna keep your hair. Finasteride, minoxidil... Worst case scenario get a hair transplant.
So stop bitching about your life and go do something about it: either DGAF or start treatments. Crying about it won't do sh*t.
Hope this helps. It's never over.