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Tonight, I take the step that I have feared for 5 years, the thing I have dreaded since first I learned the meaning of the words "alopecia" and "dihydrogen testosterone." Tonight, I shall deliberately introduce finasteride into my body.
I feel both relief and fear. Fear that I'll get awful side effects, depression, brain for, erectile dysfunction, fear they'll never get away. Fear that it won't even work. Fear of a return of the gynecomastia I suffered in my teens but grew out of.
I also feel relief. The internal debate is over, I'm taking my "leap to faith" as Kirkegaard put it. I'm putting my bet solidly down on the side of a brighter future. I no longer have to argue back and forth with myself about taking it. The decision's been taken, the debate is over. I'm finally doing it, come what may.
Being a complete paranoiac, not only have I gotten into an every-day weight-lifting routine I intend to keep, not only have I started DIM and moved to the highest advisable dosage, I've opted to go for topical instead of oral finasteride.....let's see if it does me any good.
So funny that this little bottle will mean so much.
I'm so full of emotions right now boyos. Tonight could be my ruination, my salvation, or just my meh. I don't know anyone here by there real name, but it's so funny how I feel free to share this with you my total strangers rather than with my closest family and friends. Wish me well guys, and if things don't turn out right in this world, I'll meet ya on the next one, and don't be late.
I feel both relief and fear. Fear that I'll get awful side effects, depression, brain for, erectile dysfunction, fear they'll never get away. Fear that it won't even work. Fear of a return of the gynecomastia I suffered in my teens but grew out of.
I also feel relief. The internal debate is over, I'm taking my "leap to faith" as Kirkegaard put it. I'm putting my bet solidly down on the side of a brighter future. I no longer have to argue back and forth with myself about taking it. The decision's been taken, the debate is over. I'm finally doing it, come what may.
Being a complete paranoiac, not only have I gotten into an every-day weight-lifting routine I intend to keep, not only have I started DIM and moved to the highest advisable dosage, I've opted to go for topical instead of oral finasteride.....let's see if it does me any good.
So funny that this little bottle will mean so much.
I'm so full of emotions right now boyos. Tonight could be my ruination, my salvation, or just my meh. I don't know anyone here by there real name, but it's so funny how I feel free to share this with you my total strangers rather than with my closest family and friends. Wish me well guys, and if things don't turn out right in this world, I'll meet ya on the next one, and don't be late.
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