I've spoken to psychologists, posted on reddit, other forums but no one understands. i think this is the only place that will understand. I dont think im ever going to get over this girl i dated. I've never had a girlfiend before. When i was with her i wasn't working so had all the time in the world to looksmax. I probably bumped myself up to a 7/10. This girl was super fit. She was a gym addict and had an incredible body. Long story short after 8 months she left me for a tall good looking policeman NW1. My hair is diffusing and getting worse, i'm no longer as attractive as i used to be. I don't think i'm ever going to be able to get get a girl like her again. I'm blowing up inside. I hate my life. I go to work, sit in my boring as f*** office accounting job. Think about her. Finish work. Go to the gym. and repeat. I have no friends and not much family. All i really had was her and my hair and now they are both going and so am i. I don't think i;ll ever get over her. I fantasize about suicidal. On my lunch breaks i often break down and cry. I always walk passed this massive bridge and think about and see myself jumping off. I can't get over it dont think i ever will. i'm like a 5/10 now. i have no purpose, no desires. I want to die.