Let's clear the air about something: I'm neither bipolar, nor psychotic. Despite having seen an army of mental health professionals, that diagnostic is just not in my medical record. Here's the reality: I had a manic episode and a psychotic episode that were caused by an SSRI antidepressant. And please could you stop the condescending tone about me being crazy and you being a paragon of mental health for god's sake? And again, I want you to list my inconsistencies, I enjoy it, since I can always tear them apart. I just love that challenge. And I also love to be proven wrong. I call this making mistakes because it is actually making mistakes. Blindly trusting a psychiatrist who tells you that your problems are due to a chemical imbalance in your head (not your decaying hair), turning into a full-blown manic who's happy all the time and sees everything under a distorted light. "Oh look my hair is growing back from apple cider vinegar and supplements, surely it's the supplements! Let's take more of them!" I was thinking about this yesterday and how my sense of shame was suppressed for the whole manic episode which lasted like 6 months, you only need to real my post on Immortalhair to see that there was something wrong with me. All that shame came back all at once when I stopped the SSRI, and then the psychotic break ensued, I suddenly was aware of all the reprehensible things I had done for the past 6 months (on this forum too) and I felt absolutely mortified. So my mind distorted the impact of my actions, and I believed that I had hurt people so much that they were all conspiring to make me pay. I know it sounds insane, when you put all the above together, it makes sense.