I'm from Northern Ireand, 20, 6'1, slim body type, void of any sexual intimacy with women even though I don't struggle to talk to them whatsoever. As for my face - I know I'm nothing special as I simply wouldn't be in this situation if I was a good-looking dude. Don't think I'm terribly ugly though (was at a concert with my friend and his girl last night and some random dude started hugging me saying 'You're a handsome bastard, bet you could get laid in this club tonight if you wanted to', very odd, flattering but couldn't be further from the truth). Anyway, I had decent hair at 17 and a beard better than most 30 year olds (quite rare since I'm caucasian). Although at this age, I had a shit physique (proper looked like I had an eating disorder - weighed 140 lbs at my height). Hit the gym in 2018/2019 and got that all sorted. During this time, my hairline was receding from NW1.5 to NW2.5 but I just accepted it because I assumed I'd at least keep the density like my dad. Last year I then made plans to go to uni, then in these last 2 months, the frontal central region of my hair has started thinning. If I'm in a lowly-lit room, I look like a solid NW2 with a high forehead, but when I stand under a bright light you can see my fucking scalp in the middle on the hairline. Honestly, what's the point in any of it - Why should I keep going to gym, now that I don't get roasted for 'looking like a holocaust victim' anymore, I'll get roasted for being the bald guy instead? Why should I even go off to university, to get a higher paying job so I can buy a bigger house in years to come and live alone in it? Why should I do anything but LDAR? I've been to flat parties at universities before and with the harsh overhead lighting in the kitchen area (where all the drinking and socialising happens), I'll be looking like the fucking crypt keeper on the sesh when term starts in September. Plus, to make it worse, I'll be hanging around with a high number of 17 and 18 year olds as I decided to go to university late. To top it off though, my mum makes comments about my hair saying things like 'Did you get a shorter haircut recently?' and 'Your hair looks thin, you should give it a wash with shampoo'. Inside my blood BOILS when she says this, but I calmly explain to her that's its male pattern baldness, she raises her tone, gets defensive and starts talking about her own hairline saying she too has a high forehead, as if her female hair situation has ANY FUCKING RELEVANCE TO ME. I explain to her how only the men in the family's genes are relevant and she still invalidates what I'm saying, by telling me about her dad (an NW2 at 80, genetics I obviously didn't inherit). My dad's side was filled with guys who were mainly NW3 vertex by 40, who then don't advance past NW4 until the end of their lives. This frontal thinning makes me feel that I haven't got their genes and that I'm destined to be looking like Old Man Wickles among university students by the end of my 4 year course (I'll be 24 then.) FUCK MY LIFE. I can also tell that she's getting more and more concerned about how sexually inactive I am. I say I'm depressed and again, she becomes flustered and tells me to 'stop being such a waster' and 'go get a life', saying 'I'm the master of my own destiny'. I used to be just sad about this ordeal, but I'm starting to get angry about it lately, which isn't like me at all. Don't want to do anything stupid. All in all, she just can't take that she gave birth to a bum like myself. I do have the money for a hair transplant (I have over £10,000 saved), but I know I need to hold off for as long as possible to let it all stabilise. I feel like if I have my dad's genetics I'd be a great candidate, but by the time I'm ready for it, university will be over and I'll be back to wagecucking with no opportunity to meet new people once again. Tricky situation. Currently not on any medication. Scared of finasteride's potential side effects, they're about the only thing that could make me more depressed than I am already. Anyway, was nice to get to vent to a community I know understands, hopefully this post lets some of the other youngsters on here know they're not alone. Cheers, guys.