Hi all.
Slight change of plan:
Given how good I have been feeling this last week since temporarily quitting the finasteride, (see earlier posts in this thread) and because of what seems like an ever-increasing number of people reporting adverse side effects, I am giving more serious consideration to staying off it for good.
If I do, it will not be an easy decision, because the positive effects have been undeniable.
As I said, there are two main contributing factors to my considering giving up, which go beyond the initial buzz of feeling horny again. One is the fact that there are a number of symptoms that I didn't even realise I was experiencing, all of which have since evaporated:
I'm thinking more clearly. My memory has improved. In the morning, I feel refreshed as though I have had a more satisfying sleep, and I can recall my dreams. I feel more positive about the future. And on Saturday I got back in touch with my ex.
It's not just my libido, but my emotional sexuality that I feel I am once again back in touch with. I feel emotionally as well as physically aroused by the thought of her. Something that I haven't felt since we started dating.
...Which was, surprise surprise, almost one year ago, back in the days when we went at it like rabbits, and the size of my p**rn collection was still growing, before I lost interest almost entirely.
The other factor is fear, plain and simple. Not fear that I might temporarily re-experience the side effects if I start again at a lower dose, but rather, that I might find out in another two years or so that it has finally been officially confirmed that Finasteride is causing longer lasting or permanent side effects than was previously claimed.
This fear today outweighs my fear of going entirely bald, and I can no longer honestly say that I have very much faith in the official claims that only a small percentage of men experience side effects, and that nearly all men recover very quickly when they stop.
I am aware of the possibility that finasteride may simply be getting a biased, negative rep online right now simply because happy men with plentiful libidos, rock hard erections and an abundance of hair regrowth have little reason to contribute in hair loss forums.
And there are plenty of fear-mongering bastards that are ready to exploit and exaggerate sides in favour of their alternative therapies.
Therefore, maybe the scare stories are totally disproportionate.
But there are far too many people complaining about permanent sides, as well as statements by UK and Swedish medical authorites, for me to feel comfortable about starting it again- at this stage, at least.
It is not my intention to worry anyone else on this drug, particularly if they have had decent finasteride success with few or no sides.
I will continue to report back on my progress, but felt I should state that it is less likely that I will recommence a regime on a smaller dose of finasteride, as originally planned. I may change my mind, but even if I do I will be ready to come off it straight away, even if I only experience mild sides after what I deem to be acceptable 'breaking in' period.
Finasteride Cessation Update:
Today is the first day I haven't felt increasingly horny since the day I quit. Not 'unhorny' like before - just mellow, and not distracted by the thought of massive tits.
But Im not screaming 'Post-Propecia Syndroooome' and hurling myself out the window just yet!
Christ almighty, the lust had to level off at some point, otherwise by next weekend I would have been snatching women off the street.
I still feel good in every other respect. The only other symptom so far is the unfortunate occasional itch emanating from the areas of my head where my hair is thinning- something I used to experience before starting finasteride just over a year ago. But hey, it's inevitable.
If I had to guess, I think there's a good chance I will be up and down for quite a while until my body readjusts, which is fine.
My new project in the meantime will be to find other ways to compensate to the point that I am happy again with how I look and feel, so that this time I am better prepared psychologically, whatever I eventually choose to do.
I need to take stock. And I need to pay attention when people tell me it doesn't actually matter very much, because the fact is they're right.
It's just difficult to convince yourself of that fact, isn't it?
Difficult, but not impossible.
I'll keep in touch.