Aplunk1
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I'm learning to accept and cope with my hairloss.
In fact, I'm honestly thinking about saying "f*** it," and shaving my head-- with a Clippers to a zero guard. I'll continue to use treatments, though.
My shedding has been slowly increasing. I've been shedding about 30 hairs daily, now. It sucks. I can't avoid it... They're mostly thin, wispy hairs, but I get terminal hairs every now and then.
I'm learning to accept my hairloss.
I'm learning to accept my lifestyle.
I'm learning to accept that God is punishing me.
I'm learning to accept that I was born to an angry and abusive father, and an emotional and often unmaneagable mother.
I'm learning to accept that I will not be able to afford college.
I'm learning to accept that people don't accept me on the basis of my character, but by the looks.
I'm learning to accept that I was born with bad skin.
I'm learning to accept that women truly are shallow, and that "good" women are too few and hard to find.
I'm learning to accept that I am a failure, and that I must do everything in my life ALONE, and without ANYBODY to help me.
I'm learning to accept that I'll be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life and still be unhappy.
I'm learning to accept that I've had a bad childhood, eating disorders, repressed memories, and trauma.
I'm learning to accept that I will no longer be of much value to society because of my life, lifestyle, psycholical conditions, and my looks.
I'm learning to accept that I will NOT be financially stable.
I'm learning to accept that nobody will love my unconditionally, and never has.
Throughout my entire life, I've been told over and over that I am guilty of one thing or another... I've listened to to many people about what I SHOULD be, or what I SHOULD do... I've always been put down by my father, and I no longer maintain communication with my extended family (and my father, for that matter), even though I TRY to communicate...
God, you have stabbed me and knifed out my heart... and I've bled into unhappy acceptance...
If you are out there, then please correct my life or kill me.
People hate me on the basis of WHO I AM.
People hate me... and I've always considered myself a kind, compassionate, and respected person...
I've been told how I'm wrong and always been wrong.
I've been WRONGED by society.
Well, f*** YOU, SOCIETY.
f*** ALL YOU SHALLOW BASTARDS out there.
f*** you for ruining other people's lives...
f*** you for all the trauma you've caused the youth.
f*** you for all the time you've spent destroying this young man's life.
f*** you.
In fact, I'm honestly thinking about saying "f*** it," and shaving my head-- with a Clippers to a zero guard. I'll continue to use treatments, though.
My shedding has been slowly increasing. I've been shedding about 30 hairs daily, now. It sucks. I can't avoid it... They're mostly thin, wispy hairs, but I get terminal hairs every now and then.
I'm learning to accept my hairloss.
I'm learning to accept my lifestyle.
I'm learning to accept that God is punishing me.
I'm learning to accept that I was born to an angry and abusive father, and an emotional and often unmaneagable mother.
I'm learning to accept that I will not be able to afford college.
I'm learning to accept that people don't accept me on the basis of my character, but by the looks.
I'm learning to accept that I was born with bad skin.
I'm learning to accept that women truly are shallow, and that "good" women are too few and hard to find.
I'm learning to accept that I am a failure, and that I must do everything in my life ALONE, and without ANYBODY to help me.
I'm learning to accept that I'll be on anti-depressants for the rest of my life and still be unhappy.
I'm learning to accept that I've had a bad childhood, eating disorders, repressed memories, and trauma.
I'm learning to accept that I will no longer be of much value to society because of my life, lifestyle, psycholical conditions, and my looks.
I'm learning to accept that I will NOT be financially stable.
I'm learning to accept that nobody will love my unconditionally, and never has.
Throughout my entire life, I've been told over and over that I am guilty of one thing or another... I've listened to to many people about what I SHOULD be, or what I SHOULD do... I've always been put down by my father, and I no longer maintain communication with my extended family (and my father, for that matter), even though I TRY to communicate...
God, you have stabbed me and knifed out my heart... and I've bled into unhappy acceptance...
If you are out there, then please correct my life or kill me.
People hate me on the basis of WHO I AM.
People hate me... and I've always considered myself a kind, compassionate, and respected person...
I've been told how I'm wrong and always been wrong.
I've been WRONGED by society.
Well, f*** YOU, SOCIETY.
f*** ALL YOU SHALLOW BASTARDS out there.
f*** you for ruining other people's lives...
f*** you for all the trauma you've caused the youth.
f*** you for all the time you've spent destroying this young man's life.
f*** you.