i broke down tonight. Suicide has been on my mind for a long time now, but tonight the urge to do it was at another level. I called my mom for help, and we drove to the nearest psychiatrist. My face and headshape isn’t by any means good for the bald look. Without my beard i’ll look like a bald child with a oblong headshape. The only that saves me a little bit is my beard. But i still can’t stand my oblong headshape - i’ll look like a fucking peanut when the time comes. I’m not sure i can live like that.... pictures is linked below. I don’t know man.. I would hate the impact suicide would have on my family, but man, i’m not sure i can live like that.. it’s gonna be a looooooooooooong life..