Hope4hairRedux
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Im not sure if I can take this anymore.
I go up and down. Through periods of depression, and momentary moments of joy.
Im just an average guy. Just any old joe. And now this. Now my identity is being stripped away, and I'll turn out like a white pig. Perhaps this is what we deserve for raping the world. For colonising and wiping out millions of natives in America and Australia. Perhaps white people are all inherentely evil. Violent pigs. Thats all I am. An ugly white pig.
More and more I think about ending it. Pulling the switch from this meaningless existence. I am not good at anything - I have no use. I did have looks, but now they are going with my hair. The only thing I can see to do now is end it. I just dont have the motivation to live anymore. Ive always been lazy. And now Im losing my hair. I dont know where I will find the motivation to continue. To push on in our consumer society, where to be ugly is a crime.
But ugly was never fashionable. The further the human race removes itself from the laws of nature, the more unbalanced we will become. I only wish I wasnt a white pig. I wish I was anything else, but I hate being this white pig devil. Baldness is to punish us. God didnt want everyone to be equal - there has to be poverty and richness, there has to beauty and ugliness. Its how the world moves.
What motivation do I have to live now? Fading looks. No real skills. Nothing. No willpower. Soon ill be another nobody.
I go up and down. Through periods of depression, and momentary moments of joy.
Im just an average guy. Just any old joe. And now this. Now my identity is being stripped away, and I'll turn out like a white pig. Perhaps this is what we deserve for raping the world. For colonising and wiping out millions of natives in America and Australia. Perhaps white people are all inherentely evil. Violent pigs. Thats all I am. An ugly white pig.
More and more I think about ending it. Pulling the switch from this meaningless existence. I am not good at anything - I have no use. I did have looks, but now they are going with my hair. The only thing I can see to do now is end it. I just dont have the motivation to live anymore. Ive always been lazy. And now Im losing my hair. I dont know where I will find the motivation to continue. To push on in our consumer society, where to be ugly is a crime.
But ugly was never fashionable. The further the human race removes itself from the laws of nature, the more unbalanced we will become. I only wish I wasnt a white pig. I wish I was anything else, but I hate being this white pig devil. Baldness is to punish us. God didnt want everyone to be equal - there has to be poverty and richness, there has to beauty and ugliness. Its how the world moves.
What motivation do I have to live now? Fading looks. No real skills. Nothing. No willpower. Soon ill be another nobody.