Oh I feel you on that completely. I used to be in denial about my hair loss for the first few years. I fixed my hair in some sort of a weird combforward and just thought it wasn't that bad and I still looked good/decent.
Eventually I decided it was time and buzzed my hair. All of a sudden I could barely recognize myself in the mirror and people started treating me differently.
Now while I'm anticipating the results of my 2nd transplant, I use toppik for photos and occasionally when I go out. I have more success on dating apps than ever.. plenty of compliments from attractive girls! Classy, slim girls with beautiful eyes express their interest in me, give me their phone number, message me and want me to call them, etc. This is honestly all that I dreamed of for years.
Before the transplants, at times I almost felt invisible or despised by women. I had a feeling that girls saw me as a creep or just sexually irrelevant. Now I finally know what it's like to truly be considered an above average, attractive guy. I can't lie, that sh*t is nice. I feel more alive than ever. I'm a bit happier and more comfortable in my skin.
@Wolf Pack
But I can't really develop any relationships with women right now bc I'm terrified of the embarrassment that might occur if they run their fingers through my hair or if I get in bed and my hair touches the pillow etc.
HOWEVER the validation I've been getting still gave me hope that I'll be able to get intimate with attractive girls in a few months, when my transplanted hair starts coming in full.
On the other hand, I kinda dread the whole dating scene and prefer to meet someone naturally, which is something that requires some serious lifestyle changes that I'm slowly working towards to achieve, as my next goal.
BOTTOM LINE.. more than anything, hair loss taught me how STRONG I am mentally. It prepared me for adult life and I'm convinced that I'll be able to deal with other serious issues and complications in the future.