ya, you re all right. college , you have to first work on your psychological problems. i think it was a bad decision to get transplants (strip) before you fix your mind. you pretty have to work on that. you need another attitude. i know thats not easy to get. i think talking about your problems helps a lot. and not on a hairloss site where everyone is depressed about hairloss. talk with people in the real world. read a book how to get a better attitude. there must be one. go make hypnosis. they change your subconscious and change the way you think.
what may help to is autosuggestion. imagine you are bald and happy. (okay i know though one) but try. and try to feel something very positive while imagine that. then do this everyday.
sometime you will believe you can be happy bald. but important is that you feel something while imagine that. if you just imagine without emotions it wont help ANYTHING. like i said...life is made of emotions.
try that one. it can even help you with other goals. if you wanna have anything , imagine you already have it + feel something positive while doing that. that helps a lot to really get it.
what even helps a lot to get happy with something is to have happy moments with people. try to get these. dont always go for the coolest people and the hottest chicks. they are often arrogant and you wont get compliments or positve moments with them.
when you get to the point that you KNOW you can have happy moments while being with someone and really have these moments then you are over it.
see, your mind has to fit with your body. if you get to this point you will be happy bald too. and that means, that you are happy while being together with one or more people. you need to fix your mind.
you need to act a way which makes you happy while being together with someone else.
i know , tough. you have to start small. first try to be happy while being with your mom or your dad. then try to be happy while being with someone who isnt that confident. at last there come hot chicks. hot chicks are hardest to handle.
ya, i think thats your fault. you stay to much at hot chicks and confident people. i know you like more to be with such people because they are cooler or something but for first search for people who are not that confident. then learn and when you have learned go back to the chicks.