I dont expect anyone to read all of this because it would take too much time out of your precious day. But for the rare chance that someone does, I just don't think I can cope anymore by telling myself everything will be alright. I'm not able to wait 6+ years for Tsuji to figure out this conundrum that is hair loss. I stay in my room all day just wasting away days that I'll never be able to get back. I have a twin sister that just went into college and I should be there with her, having fun and getting an education. But I'm a norwood 3 climbing & diffused at 18. I couldnt stay in high school anymore because girls that used to want to date me and would stare at me and even grab my butt (not trying to be funny), then started laughing at me and mocking me. I got mocked in front of my whole clas, this guy said i"hey I think you're starting to lose your hair" and when I tried to ignore it, he made sure to point out what parts he thought were thinning of my hair. Well no sh*t captain obvious, you think I don't know I'm losing hair? Since I dropped out, I then got a GED which isnt worth jack sh*t in this day & age, and I just feel hopeless. I've been chronically depressed since I was 13 as is, then throw this cherry on top and it's just becoming too much to bear. My mom tells me to get a job, but honestly I'd rather sit in jail like my dad has done for most of his life. My mom doesnt even care, when I tell her how much hair loss is affecting me, she just says "sorry, what do you want me to do about it?". All of this is just making me insane and I've been hearing voices in my head for the past year as well. I'm writing this to rant and make myself feel better, but I already know the type of responses I'm going to get. "Yeah I completely understand how tough this is for you, but you cant let it stop you." Where are the people at who've been losing hair since the ripe age of 16? I dont care if you started losing your hair at 27, you dont understand and never will understand what it's like for someone like me. Baldness is looked at with such disgust, which sometimes makes me feel like the only way out is killing myself since I've already been suicidal from a young age (actually suicidal, not just the typical teenage drama queen b**ch) and anti depressants dont work on me either. What the f*** am I supposed to do? I'm still a virgin because I was admittedly a shy introvert, but I could still get girls somehow. WELP, that version of me is long gone and every day I'm trying to figure out who I am because the person I used to be is just a memory. Honestly I wish that my life was never created because never in a million years did I think my life was going to turn out this way. What the f*** am I supposed to do in a situation like this? Honestly?