youngtraveller
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Hi everyone, I know I probably have the same sad story as hundreds of other members and readers.. I'll share it anyway because I guess it feels good to get it off my chest.
I'm 20 years old and ever since I was 15 / 16 I have noticed I have had a different hair line to the rest of my friends and people my age.. at about 16 it really started to worry me.. my Doctor said I wasnt losing my hair. My mum said it was just in my head and my hairline was a little higher (more receeded) than most, but that was just the way I was and it wouldnt get any worse. For about a year I beleived this was just the case and any time anyone asked about it I said "oh i just have a pretty high hairline.. its just how I am, its always been this way".
Four years on and it's pretty obvious im suffering from male pattern baldness... For the last 3 years or so I have been absolutely paranoid about my hair, and for the last 12 months or so its been even worse... I find myself avoiding the mirror at home, looking directly at the sink when i clean my teeth. Trying to avoid being reminded that im going BALD. It sounds stupid, but it is really ruining my life. Every time I see a loose hair in my bed or on my clothing i'm hit with depression. I feel at 20 years I shouldn't be making trips into the bathroom at work to check that my hair is okay. I shouldn't be afraid to walk down the road because the wind will blow my hair to the side.. I shouldn't feel the need to get out of bed at 3am to stand at the mirror staring at my hair line cursing the world - my friends who don't have to experience what i'm going through - my parents who don't see it as a big deal - god (if there is one.. seriously though if there is one.. how does male pattern baldness fit into his plan????).
I've been on Propecia for about 16 months and it hasn't seemed to help.. It's hard to tell though if it has helped slow it down or if this is the speed at which I was always destined to go bald. I tried Rogaine for a while but that just made my scalp itch and I seemed to scratch out even more hairs in my sleep! - has anyone else experienced this whilst taking Rogaine? I don't know if I should keep on the Propecia or not.. It is expensive as hell and i'm worried that it might be making me put on weight / slowing my metabolism.. (I don't want to be FAT and BALD...) Hair transplants tickle my fancy every now and then, but then i'm reminded of the cost.. And the fact that for the rest of my life I would always feel "fake"?
At this stage I feel lost / at a dead end.. I dont know where to go from here.. should I just man up and shave it all off and hope like hell that I look alright? Should I keep my hair the way it is until eventually... I don't know? It receeds into nothing? I wear my hair fairly long and brush it forward and probably use my hand to inconspicously push my hair back across my temples when the wind or anything else moves it about 100 (conservatively) times a day. My father has the same hair line as me.. and hes 53! tries to tell me that hes had it his whole life but his memory isn't the best and I don't particularily beleive him.. Is it possible to have a hairline as fcked up as mine as part of your genetics?
I suppose coming on here for help / support feels like my last real option. I have an appointment booked with a psychotherapist next week to hopefully help me get through this or work on my self esteem but who knows.
Thanks for reading - I know I have a pretty negative outlook but I guess this is me opening up about my problem.
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I'm 20 years old and ever since I was 15 / 16 I have noticed I have had a different hair line to the rest of my friends and people my age.. at about 16 it really started to worry me.. my Doctor said I wasnt losing my hair. My mum said it was just in my head and my hairline was a little higher (more receeded) than most, but that was just the way I was and it wouldnt get any worse. For about a year I beleived this was just the case and any time anyone asked about it I said "oh i just have a pretty high hairline.. its just how I am, its always been this way".
Four years on and it's pretty obvious im suffering from male pattern baldness... For the last 3 years or so I have been absolutely paranoid about my hair, and for the last 12 months or so its been even worse... I find myself avoiding the mirror at home, looking directly at the sink when i clean my teeth. Trying to avoid being reminded that im going BALD. It sounds stupid, but it is really ruining my life. Every time I see a loose hair in my bed or on my clothing i'm hit with depression. I feel at 20 years I shouldn't be making trips into the bathroom at work to check that my hair is okay. I shouldn't be afraid to walk down the road because the wind will blow my hair to the side.. I shouldn't feel the need to get out of bed at 3am to stand at the mirror staring at my hair line cursing the world - my friends who don't have to experience what i'm going through - my parents who don't see it as a big deal - god (if there is one.. seriously though if there is one.. how does male pattern baldness fit into his plan????).
I've been on Propecia for about 16 months and it hasn't seemed to help.. It's hard to tell though if it has helped slow it down or if this is the speed at which I was always destined to go bald. I tried Rogaine for a while but that just made my scalp itch and I seemed to scratch out even more hairs in my sleep! - has anyone else experienced this whilst taking Rogaine? I don't know if I should keep on the Propecia or not.. It is expensive as hell and i'm worried that it might be making me put on weight / slowing my metabolism.. (I don't want to be FAT and BALD...) Hair transplants tickle my fancy every now and then, but then i'm reminded of the cost.. And the fact that for the rest of my life I would always feel "fake"?
At this stage I feel lost / at a dead end.. I dont know where to go from here.. should I just man up and shave it all off and hope like hell that I look alright? Should I keep my hair the way it is until eventually... I don't know? It receeds into nothing? I wear my hair fairly long and brush it forward and probably use my hand to inconspicously push my hair back across my temples when the wind or anything else moves it about 100 (conservatively) times a day. My father has the same hair line as me.. and hes 53! tries to tell me that hes had it his whole life but his memory isn't the best and I don't particularily beleive him.. Is it possible to have a hairline as fcked up as mine as part of your genetics?
I suppose coming on here for help / support feels like my last real option. I have an appointment booked with a psychotherapist next week to hopefully help me get through this or work on my self esteem but who knows.
Thanks for reading - I know I have a pretty negative outlook but I guess this is me opening up about my problem.
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