RANT ALERT!!! I drank a double espresso today and i had a massive panic/derealization attack. I was already not feeling well lately, and i knew that coffee could probably deteriorate it,but i said Fuck it!...How worse can it be?...At least i'll be a wreck who has enjoyed his favotite coffee...And yet, there seems to be no threshold for suffering. All of a sudden,i felt that the blood was draining from my head...I was touching my feet and it was like i was touching someone else's wooden feet. I started to sweat and i had tremors...I was struggling to breathe,like someone who's drowning in the sea...The world felt fake...Like in a dream...I was overwhelmed by dread.... What kind of shitty predisposition is this?...How can some people drink 5-6 coffees a day without any impact on them and some others have an almost anaphylactic response with just one? I want aswers!!! Do i overexpress ryanodine receptors in the brain?..Or is it due to caffeine's inhibition of the adenosine receptors?..Or is it due to caffeine's action on phosphodiesterase enzymes? Or is it low CYP1A2 enzyme activity and therefore decreased caffeine metabolism? I want answers!!! Why are all the doctors a bunch of incapable,uneducated,ignorant imbeciles? If i can bring myself in a state where i could drink 5-6 coffees without any negative impact,i know that i will have cured myself...You hear that stupid doctors?...Try to do something useful in your life,than preaching your cliche'd nonsense. It was horrible...I wish i had the power to laugh it away...I wish i had the power to laugh everything away. Sometimes i wonder why i'm still afraid of death,when i had died so many times.