I want to say I’m genuinely that happy but it took a year if suicidal thoughts and not smiling. I’m also 5,6, only parent alive is dying , and I’m in my most stressful part of my life as I’m in nursing school and losing my hair. I was suicidal last year and would not leave the house. I did not smile at all and everyone around me treated me differently. I thought it was because of my hair change. I started seeing a psychiatrist and started an anti depressant. I also met a girl that likes me for me at least I believe ( she met me when I didn’t even have clean clothes from depression and offered very little to her ) but she stuck around and brings a lot of happiness to my life. I meditate everyday and workout and nice a healthy life style. Also when I start getting negative thoughts , I quickly channel them into positives ones. I’ve always been one of the most confident and happy people I have known in my circle. I choose to not let the things I can’t change affect my confidence and happy and instead change things I have control of. Life is too short to be depressed if you can get help I strongly suggest it. I also should add I feel a lot better since going back to school because I’m working towards something and that brings confidence And happiness to my life.
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