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People call me crazy because my balding is almost undetectable when my hair is blown dry, but my hair definitely didn’t look like this a year ago. I’m willing to try estrogel or estradiol if that’s what it takes I just don’t know when I should take the dive, I’m only 18 and I’m about to go to college out of state where I know nobody. It feels like no matter what I choose, whether I go bald or lose my masculinity, I’m giving up a huge chunk of my life. I’ve decided if I have to make that choice I’d rather give up my manhood and any hope for a future relationship. I realized if I went bald I’d basically lose everything. I’d completely lose the confidence that I just started to gain. My identity would change. No matter what I did and no matter what I achieved I’d always be too ashamed to meet an old friend, or employer, or family member for coffee In the future when the first thing they’d see is my giant misshapen head. It’s crazy how I’d never thought about balding before, and then one day it hits me from my blindside and my whole world is different. I know there are treatment options on the horizon and I want to hold out for them because I know estrogen will cause irreversible changes, but at the same time once it’s bad enough to be noticeable, there’s really no getting it back.
