The place I live is enforcing a no smoking policy. I can't smoke on my balcony anymore. I feel like they are enforcing me to be healthy (because it's all the rage here in CA). A coworker of mine today asked me why I don't join his fitness challenge because I look like I could stand to put on a few pounds. All this pressure to live a healthy lifestyle. I told him I need hair not muscles, so until you can help me out in that department then I pass. Because what's the point in being healthy if you aren't happy? And being bald is like someone holding my head underwater and I can't seem to learn how to breathe water somehow. Healthy lifestyles are for those who love themselves love the way they look and want to maintain it. I have nothing to maintain. Why knock myself out just so at best I can just look more menacing but still not at all attractive or acceptable. Why bother, huh? If I want to slowly kill myself escaping a harsh reality then that is my picking right.
I understand your frustration, especially with the superficial, ditsy, shallow, health-obsessed place you inhabit (California - every bald, pale, skinny caucasoid's worst nightmare!)... but aggressive non-smoking policy is hardly just restricted to California or USA thesedays, even here in "liberal" England you can't smoke in most workplaces and those which you still can, it is frowned upon very badly and is much, much less socially acceptable than it was, even 10-12 years ago...
I personally like to work out purely for my own mental and physical health, it's a habit which has been instilled in my since a kid when I played sports and it gives me great pleasure, the same way people enjoy signing or playing musical instruments when they're older, they're not trying to become pros and earn a record deal, they just do it for their soul, enjoyment and mental wellbeing. Hell, if I was even half decent at singing and guitar I would also do that.
I personally don't understand the rationale behind people who go to the gym purely in the hope of future female validation (when in reality most girls won't notice or don't really care about build, unless you're really scrawny or really fat) I mean any training programme which makes a noticeable aesthetic difference to your physique involves a lot of grunt, effort, sweat and compound lifts... so you've got to really actually enjoy weight lifting to do all that sh&t every week, simply wanting a bit of fleeting female validation would be nowhere near enough motivation for most people, myself included...
On another note UCman, have you ever considered experimenting with a modern, high-spec hair system? I just figure if the reality of being bald is indeed that harsh for you and as you say like forever drowning under water, then why not at least try something different? Anything has to better than this current situation? no?....
