IBM
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You're all very kind but I'm still very depressed. I'm still very anxious.
Today i went to a restaurant and there were some non related girls looking at me constantly and some were talking about me and pointing with their eyes. One of them was fixed in me with an undercover scorn. I'm a freak for sure.
And i thought i looked somehow nice. Before getting the dish there was a guy and a girl in front of the fifo. The guy looked at me with a bad face and spoked to the girl. The girl looked and then spoke to him. And he talked in normal voice "This the kind who still is a kid". Well what was wrong with me? It was my hair? Well its a little unusual, a little bit emo but with lack of density i cant do more. It was how i was clothed? Just a black shirt and regular pants.
And there's lots of guys looking at me with very bad face and mood. I felt like a foreign. Did i commited a fault just to be there?
Yesterday the same thing. Some four girls sitting in a table looking and commenting and laughing on me. And i was wearing a suit.
I dont know why i care anyway. I was planning leaving the company, get the paycheck and fly around Europe living in hostels and trying to get a job just to get some more money. But no, after sometime i got back with my official and written decision.
I've the skill, i've the talent but i've got no brain.
Today i went to a restaurant and there were some non related girls looking at me constantly and some were talking about me and pointing with their eyes. One of them was fixed in me with an undercover scorn. I'm a freak for sure.
And i thought i looked somehow nice. Before getting the dish there was a guy and a girl in front of the fifo. The guy looked at me with a bad face and spoked to the girl. The girl looked and then spoke to him. And he talked in normal voice "This the kind who still is a kid". Well what was wrong with me? It was my hair? Well its a little unusual, a little bit emo but with lack of density i cant do more. It was how i was clothed? Just a black shirt and regular pants.
And there's lots of guys looking at me with very bad face and mood. I felt like a foreign. Did i commited a fault just to be there?
Yesterday the same thing. Some four girls sitting in a table looking and commenting and laughing on me. And i was wearing a suit.
I dont know why i care anyway. I was planning leaving the company, get the paycheck and fly around Europe living in hostels and trying to get a job just to get some more money. But no, after sometime i got back with my official and written decision.
I've the skill, i've the talent but i've got no brain.
