Aplunk1
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Hi guys,
I don't really come to these forums as much as I once did. I used to spend countless hours on here, replying to Telogen Effluvium newest post I could. I'm just rather bored with the whole hairloss issue, and instead I've found myself escaping from this world.
Today, I admit that I only lost about 20 "noticeable" hairs... Most of which were thick... but it totally ruined my day.
I find myself becoming more and more sucked into escapable video games, like World of Warcraft (which I just bought), or spending countless hours on the computer. I don't socialize much anymore at all.
I don't want to sound like an arrogant prick, but I've always been rather successful with finding female companions. Developing friendships, on the other hand, has been VERY difficult on me the last few years. But anyway, the last few months, I've broken up with a girl I dated for ~8 months, and I've been getting female attention from a few classmates. I just ignore their calls, messages, and their questions.
I just don't want them anymore.
I don't want to leave my apartment anymore.
I feel like losing my hair is really impacting my the person that IS my future. I see myself spending so much time here on the computer, and I realize that THAT IS NOT ME. I don't even know who this guy is. I don't feel ANYTHING for me-- no pride, no confidence, no sense of accomplishment or ability.
I don't feel.
Since taking a particular anti-depressant, I've become less depressed, but I've also gained a lot of weight, lost my sex drive, and have become more privy to isolating activities. I've become lethargic. My reactions have become slow and poor.
Generally, I take a medicine that tunes out the horrors of my depression. It really knocks me into a different zone, where feelings and reaction aren't felt... I'm going to see an anti-depressant specialist in a week. He is known for admistering more anti-depressants than ANY OTHER doctor in the U.S. He has my mother taking 5 or so different anti-depressants. He's actually very knowledgeable and lectures to other doctors, but I don't see myself wanting to use these drugs.
Anyway,
I'm 21 years old. I'm losing my hair.
I've become overweight in the last few months. I weighed myself at 208 this morning, when my normal weight is at 160/165.
I don't have the will to step outside my door.
My eldest brother has lost all of his hair, being only 3 years to mine. He really dislikes himself for having hairloss, just as I do... And whenever I see him, he is CONSTANTLY checking out my hair.
I've told him repeatedly that it makes me feel self-conscious and less of a man. He concedes that he'll never do it again, but he always does.
This makes me really regret wanting to see my family... and it really makes me feel AWFUL about my hair.
I don't know what to do, guys.
I don't have much of any friends, at least not in my area.
I've broken up with a girl who has been rather unsupportive of my mental health.
I feel burned out on my life, completely unenergetic.
I don't love myself anymore.
I want to know.
Am I bottom of the barrel?
What should I do with myself?
I don't really come to these forums as much as I once did. I used to spend countless hours on here, replying to Telogen Effluvium newest post I could. I'm just rather bored with the whole hairloss issue, and instead I've found myself escaping from this world.
Today, I admit that I only lost about 20 "noticeable" hairs... Most of which were thick... but it totally ruined my day.
I find myself becoming more and more sucked into escapable video games, like World of Warcraft (which I just bought), or spending countless hours on the computer. I don't socialize much anymore at all.
I don't want to sound like an arrogant prick, but I've always been rather successful with finding female companions. Developing friendships, on the other hand, has been VERY difficult on me the last few years. But anyway, the last few months, I've broken up with a girl I dated for ~8 months, and I've been getting female attention from a few classmates. I just ignore their calls, messages, and their questions.
I just don't want them anymore.
I don't want to leave my apartment anymore.
I feel like losing my hair is really impacting my the person that IS my future. I see myself spending so much time here on the computer, and I realize that THAT IS NOT ME. I don't even know who this guy is. I don't feel ANYTHING for me-- no pride, no confidence, no sense of accomplishment or ability.
I don't feel.
Since taking a particular anti-depressant, I've become less depressed, but I've also gained a lot of weight, lost my sex drive, and have become more privy to isolating activities. I've become lethargic. My reactions have become slow and poor.
Generally, I take a medicine that tunes out the horrors of my depression. It really knocks me into a different zone, where feelings and reaction aren't felt... I'm going to see an anti-depressant specialist in a week. He is known for admistering more anti-depressants than ANY OTHER doctor in the U.S. He has my mother taking 5 or so different anti-depressants. He's actually very knowledgeable and lectures to other doctors, but I don't see myself wanting to use these drugs.
Anyway,
I'm 21 years old. I'm losing my hair.
I've become overweight in the last few months. I weighed myself at 208 this morning, when my normal weight is at 160/165.
I don't have the will to step outside my door.
My eldest brother has lost all of his hair, being only 3 years to mine. He really dislikes himself for having hairloss, just as I do... And whenever I see him, he is CONSTANTLY checking out my hair.
I've told him repeatedly that it makes me feel self-conscious and less of a man. He concedes that he'll never do it again, but he always does.
This makes me really regret wanting to see my family... and it really makes me feel AWFUL about my hair.
I don't know what to do, guys.
I don't have much of any friends, at least not in my area.
I've broken up with a girl who has been rather unsupportive of my mental health.
I feel burned out on my life, completely unenergetic.
I don't love myself anymore.
I want to know.
Am I bottom of the barrel?
What should I do with myself?