Hair Loss has taken over my life.

[sheraz1392]

The days were when I was just hitting puberty and only a couple of months short of my 14th birthday that one day my mother noticed a large number of hair on a pillow I was sleeping on. The hair were everywhere over the pillow and when I saw those hair, I had a strange kind of sad new feelings that I've never experienced before. On the same day I cut my hair short as I thought hair fall is may be due to long hair. I started oiling my hair regularly but hair were still falling in large numbers. when I was about 15, I got really depressed and shaved my head to see if it helps. It was then when my hair grew back that I first time noticed that my hair line has receded. As the time passed, I knew that something bad was happening and it bothered me a lot but still I could feel the human soul in my body. Between the years I was 16 to 19, I tried everything to save my hair, from every shampoo on the planet to every hair washing method (CO,WO,baking soda,ACV etc) just to stop the shedding but nothing helped. Hair loss affected me badly in every possible way. I got poor in my studies as I was thinking 24/7 about my hair even in class rooms and there was not a single other guy I knew who was of my age and facing this problem.There were many episodes of depression and also there were times when my condition would get better and I was again socially and academically functional but I never really got over it. Till 19 I was in a denial that I have male pattern baldness as my father lost his hair only in his 40s. As the hair loss progressed and the pattern appeared on my head I realized that mother nature is against me as I could see that I was a diffuse thinner heading towards a higher Norwood with thin permanent zones.
Now, I'm 21 and from the past 6 months my scalp is almost all visible. This curse has taken over my life, I have forgotten the feelings of happiness and now the only feelings I can feel are those strange sad feelings which I felt on the day when I first saw my hair on the pillow. The worst part this curse is this that I cannot get it out of my mind, its always on my mind and it was always hard for me to think about anything else other than the hair.
Life is not fair.:lost:

 

[DoneWithIt]

The days were when I was just hitting puberty and only a couple of months short of my 14th birthday that one day my mother noticed a large number of hair on a pillow I was sleeping on. The hair were everywhere over the pillow and when I saw those hair, I had a strange kind of sad new feelings that I've never experienced before. On the same day I cut my hair short as I thought hair fall is may be due to long hair. I started oiling my hair regularly but hair were still falling in large numbers. when I was about 15, I got really depressed and shaved my head to see if it helps. It was then when my hair grew back that I first time noticed that my hair line has receded. As the time passed, I knew that something bad was happening and it bothered me a lot but still I could feel the human soul in my body. Between the years I was 16 to 19, I tried everything to save my hair, from every shampoo on the planet to every hair washing method (CO,WO,baking soda,ACV etc) just to stop the shedding but nothing helped. Hair loss affected me badly in every possible way. I got poor in my studies as I was thinking 24/7 about my hair even in class rooms and there was not a single other guy I knew who was of my age and facing this problem.There were many episodes of depression and also there were times when my condition would get better and I was again socially and academically functional but I never really got over it. Till 19 I was in a denial that I have male pattern baldness as my father lost his hair only in his 40s. As the hair loss progressed and the pattern appeared on my head I realized that mother nature is against me as I could see that I was a diffuse thinner heading towards a higher Norwood with thin permanent zones.
Now, I'm 21 and from the past 6 months my scalp is almost all visible. This curse has taken over my life, I have forgotten the feelings of happiness and now the only feelings I can feel are those strange sad feelings which I felt on the day when I first saw my hair on the pillow. The worst part this curse is this that I cannot get it out of my mind, its always on my mind and it was always hard for me to think about anything else other than the hair.
Life is not fair.:lost:

I have read many posts on hair loss and written quite a few myself, but this one really got to me...
Just like you it was like I just woke up one day, it was May 2012, and my hair was shedding. I was 20 years old (and I am female btw).
I had gone through a shed about a year before that which only lasted like 3 weeks, so I told myself it would be alright. My doctor said the same. Still I had this bad gut feeling something was wrong.
Fast forward 6 months, and the shed had yet to stop. I was losing like 200 hairs a day, every day. Also had a mild itch.
Went back to my doctor, got some Nizoral for the itch and bought some hair vitamins from the pharmacy. Another 3 months went by, nothing helped.
Then, around christmas 2012 the shed suddenly stopped. After 9 months of shedding my hair miraculously looked as thick as before (which was very thick), and at this point I should have been happy.
Still I had this weird feeling that it would not be alright. And boy was I right.
When my hair stopped shedding my scalp itch would become more and more frequent, until it was a permanent 24/7 thing. I also noticed my bangs were getting thinner.
In February 2013 I went to see my first dermatologist, who told me nothing there was nothing wrong with my hair. I was relieved, went home - but the weird feeling wouldn't stop.
Another month or so passed and now I could seriously see my hair getting thinner, although there was no real shedding. I started researching hair loss, and from there on my life became hell.
It became an obsession that would be with me all my awake time, and sometimes I even dreamt of hair loss.
After awhile I saw 2 more dermatologists and even had a biopsy, which came back normal. Yet my hair was getting thinner, scalp was hurting and now I developed a thin spot on the crown too.
I took all blood tests under the sun and they all came back normal. In August 2013 I'd had enough, and decided that despite what the doctors said I would start Rogaine. Even got on oral spironolactone.
3 months later my hair is worse than ever and it's getting hard to hide it from others. My head is full of miniaturisation so it's clear that I'm dealing with Androgenetic Alopecia.
It is life altering and shattering in a way that other people will never understand, and like you I've slowly forgotten how to be happy. I no longer have those happy feelings.
All that is left is sadness, anger, jealousy, bitterness, confusion, worthlessness and the disgust of my own reflection.
I cannot get it out of my mind either, and doubt I ever will. It's gotten to the point where I wonder if suicide is the only way out but I'm scared my attempt will fail and that I will end up brain dead, paralysed or something like that. With my luck I can imagine that happening. Also I have a family which makes it hard. So I just pray for something to happen to me at this point, won't even ask for hair anymore because I know it will not happen. All I can hope is for a fatal stroke, heart attack or to be in an accident. Or for some miraculous cure to emerge but I seriously doubt that's gonna happen, and if it does it will probably be in 20 years from now and my whole youth will be wasted to baldness anyway. No, life is not fair.

Hugs to you

 

[medilook]

why don't you guys just shave your head bald.

 

[uncomfortable man]

why don't you guys just shave your head bald.

You can and most do but that doesn't magically erase people's maligned perception of baldness. Shaving fools nobody if you are nw5.

 

[uncomfortable man]

Who gives a **** about bruce willis? Really? I'm sorry but I'm sick of people using celebrities to make us feel better. Not relevant at all.

 

[joner]

You should remember that Bruce wasn't bald in his 20's as many of us.
I am caucasian but quite olive skinned and I think that bald haircut looks even worse to me than a fair skin type!

 

[ghg]

You should remember that Bruce wasn't bald in his 20's as many of us.
I am caucasian but quite olive skinned and I think that bald haircut looks even worse to me than a fair skin type!

Yeah wasn't Bruce like almost 40 when he rose to stardom with Die Hard? He still had hair back then, mind you.

EDIT: Well he was only 33, but still. He still had a fair amount of hair.

 

[sheraz1392]

I ****ing hate my life..today I went for shopping and when trying for a shirt in the changing room I saw my hair in the mirror, they were so thin and totaly f**ked up.

 

[DoneWithIt]

I dont know why they have such harsh lights in dressing rooms. Dont they want the customers to feel like they look nice instead of putting a beam of light in your face?? soft lighting is much more flattering which makes the customer want to buy the clothes..

 

[Exodus2011]

harsh lighting exaggerates what is there

it exaggerates good looks and ugliness simultaneously i think

 

[reckless]

Janaab, shave your head and wear a skull cap, it is a common look in Pakistani men.

I am a Sikh and I have started wearing a pagri.

 

[swingline747]

Janaab, shave your head and wear a skull cap, it is a common look in Pakistani men.

I am a Sikh and I have started wearing a pagri.

Funny how baldness affects any guy from around the globe

 

[whymewhynow]

Funny how baldness affects any guy from around the globe

Yes balding hate is not a cultural thing. Baldness is HATED and despised by all men, of all cultures, of all times. It's innate.

 

[swingline747]

Yes balding hate is not a cultural thing. Baldness is HATED and despised by all men, of all cultures, of all times. It's innate.

not all times.
Back in the midevil ages balding was a sign of maturity and intellect.... those people also drilled holes in each other's heads to let out evil spirits tho

 

[whymewhynow]

not all times.
Back in the midevil ages balding was a sign of maturity and intellect.... those people also drilled holes in each other's heads to let out evil spirits tho

Maturity and intellect are not sexy, it's just that different things were valued than beauty for men back then... In our society there is plenty of food and comforts, we don't need men to be "protectors" they can be sex objects like women, so men are valued for their looks more often now.

 

[sheraz1392]

Every single day is a struggle!

 

[talmoode]

Maturity and intellect are not sexy, it's just that different things were valued than beauty for men back then... In our society there is plenty of food and comforts, we don't need men to be "protectors" they can be sex objects like women, so men are valued for their looks more often now.

he just pointed out that you were wrong to say 'all times'.

 

[Thom]

They're right, those dressing room lights are designed to enhance your features so you think you look great in their clothes. Adversely, it does make our scalp look thinner. Like they said though, try not to worry to much as it doesn't look that harsh normally.

 

[sheraz1392]

It is confirmed now that I have DUPA kind of hair loss in addition to male pattern baldness. I always wondered why my hair are turning uglier and curly from the sides so, yesterday I captured some pictures of back and sides after a long long time and my hair are almost gone from 2 inches above the ears and bottom region of the back. These areas are almost bare(covered with very fine and miniaturized hair ) and I have lost about 50 percent of the density in remaining region of the permanent zones. On the other side, from the male pattern baldness's blessings I'm thinning in Norwood 6/7 pattern.

 

[Kam123]

I have read many posts on hair loss and written quite a few myself, but this one really got to me...
Just like you it was like I just woke up one day, it was May 2012, and my hair was shedding. I was 20 years old (and I am female btw).
I had gone through a shed about a year before that which only lasted like 3 weeks, so I told myself it would be alright. My doctor said the same. Still I had this bad gut feeling something was wrong.
Fast forward 6 months, and the shed had yet to stop. I was losing like 200 hairs a day, every day. Also had a mild itch.
Went back to my doctor, got some Nizoral for the itch and bought some hair vitamins from the pharmacy. Another 3 months went by, nothing helped.
Then, around christmas 2012 the shed suddenly stopped. After 9 months of shedding my hair miraculously looked as thick as before (which was very thick), and at this point I should have been happy.
Still I had this weird feeling that it would not be alright. And boy was I right.
When my hair stopped shedding my scalp itch would become more and more frequent, until it was a permanent 24/7 thing. I also noticed my bangs were getting thinner.
In February 2013 I went to see my first dermatologist, who told me nothing there was nothing wrong with my hair. I was relieved, went home - but the weird feeling wouldn't stop.
Another month or so passed and now I could seriously see my hair getting thinner, although there was no real shedding. I started researching hair loss, and from there on my life became hell.
It became an obsession that would be with me all my awake time, and sometimes I even dreamt of hair loss.
After awhile I saw 2 more dermatologists and even had a biopsy, which came back normal. Yet my hair was getting thinner, scalp was hurting and now I developed a thin spot on the crown too.
I took all blood tests under the sun and they all came back normal. In August 2013 I'd had enough, and decided that despite what the doctors said I would start Rogaine. Even got on oral spironolactone.
3 months later my hair is worse than ever and it's getting hard to hide it from others. My head is full of miniaturisation so it's clear that I'm dealing with Androgenetic Alopecia.
It is life altering and shattering in a way that other people will never understand, and like you I've slowly forgotten how to be happy. I no longer have those happy feelings.
All that is left is sadness, anger, jealousy, bitterness, confusion, worthlessness and the disgust of my own reflection.
I cannot get it out of my mind either, and doubt I ever will. It's gotten to the point where I wonder if suicide is the only way out but I'm scared my attempt will fail and that I will end up brain dead, paralysed or something like that. With my luck I can imagine that happening. Also I have a family which makes it hard. So I just pray for something to happen to me at this point, won't even ask for hair anymore because I know it will not happen. All I can hope is for a fatal stroke, heart attack or to be in an accident. Or for some miraculous cure to emerge but I seriously doubt that's gonna happen, and if it does it will probably be in 20 years from now and my whole youth will be wasted to baldness anyway. No, life is not fair.

Hugs to you

Like many other mysteries in the world hair loss is one mankind been trying to solve since the beginning of time..

Truth is it's one of gods beautiful plagues for punishment of sins n for people to turn to him..

the only cure for hair loss is the god of Daniel and of moses.

Listen to his bible day n night n do the things in it

N he will heal u all