Hi Confused,
I can't imagine how difficult it must be. I started much later but the pain is always acute. I think if you're feeling this desperate you must get on meds. It's the best option we have today. For many people they really do work. Of course there are risks but you have to try. As per other threads, you will feel better for having done something. If you give it your best shot and it still doesn't work at least you'll know you did what was in your power to do. Check out
@Somebody's thread. I'm now following his method. You need finasteride and min to have a chance in my opinion. I tried finasteride on its own and didn't see much change after two years. Since starting min this year, I'm seeing slow progress. I'm also derma-rolling which helps absorption. Hopeful that by the end of the year things will be looking better. You will feel better when you're at least fighting it and if you see progress that will give you hope.