meetjoeblack
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So, I am in my 20s. I spent from puberty on with basic or mild acne. I assumed through life style, healthy eating, fitness, exercise, I would auto correct it. I was wrong.
I hit late teens when my acne seemed to get worse. In my 20s, adult acne was ****ing terrible, and though not cluttered or full spread, I got cystic or nodules even eating a raw diet. I could eat a high protein diet, low glycemic or gluten free diet. The result was temporary success, clear skin, and then, out of the blue, it would repeat. Cystic acne is the type that lasts weeks, months even at a time, and when it does go away, you are left with post acne inflammation or possibly a scar. Its ****ing horrible. I went and saw a natural path, I tried supplements, I tried routines, new things, and it helped temporary success before, **** genetics kicked in and ****ed me up some more. I tried medications, antibiotics, topical gels all of which did the same, little to nothing or temporarily brought success before the inevitable happened. Fast forward to the present, I got on accutane despite my doctor suggesting my skin was not bad enough for it but, my fear was to prevent acne scars in future as I have a few already. Thank god its not a clutter or face full of them. My biggest fear is being moon face.
Just recently, my cousin informed me, he noticed my beautiful dark thick head of hair has shown signs of thinning, patchy, and despite barbers telling me I will never go bald, here I am ****ting myself that I may lose it.
Guys, its been a rough last few years. If the acne hasn't been hard enough on myself concept, the scars, it was over a year and a half ago, I buried my sister and dad after a drunk driving accident. I was depressed before that cause of my skin. I was down and ****ty with those around me cause of how ****ed up my head was with obsessing over my skin. I feel a lot of guilt with them gone cause, I didn't show love, and the appreciation they deserved. It would seem every time I think my life cannot get any worse, it does, and it reveals itself shortly.
As of now, I can see my scalp in places, its patch thick needle like hair so, the slightest **** up haircut shows. I am scared of losing it all now. The plan is to try medication or preferably, dropping accutane as I have now, looking possibly into rogain or something, and maybe returning back to my natural path. I am hoping the side effects will reverse once I get off of it. Judging by the life I have had, the prayers going unanswered, and the circumstances I continue to find myself in, I highly doubt it but, I am hopeful. As of now, if I try hard enough and look, I can see my scalp by the crown and a bit by the side.
I see my dermatologist this week later on so, I am hopeful this will be resolved. If all else fails, I plan to buzz it, get a fade, maybe a short faux hawk or crew cut.
Tips? Advice?
I hit late teens when my acne seemed to get worse. In my 20s, adult acne was ****ing terrible, and though not cluttered or full spread, I got cystic or nodules even eating a raw diet. I could eat a high protein diet, low glycemic or gluten free diet. The result was temporary success, clear skin, and then, out of the blue, it would repeat. Cystic acne is the type that lasts weeks, months even at a time, and when it does go away, you are left with post acne inflammation or possibly a scar. Its ****ing horrible. I went and saw a natural path, I tried supplements, I tried routines, new things, and it helped temporary success before, **** genetics kicked in and ****ed me up some more. I tried medications, antibiotics, topical gels all of which did the same, little to nothing or temporarily brought success before the inevitable happened. Fast forward to the present, I got on accutane despite my doctor suggesting my skin was not bad enough for it but, my fear was to prevent acne scars in future as I have a few already. Thank god its not a clutter or face full of them. My biggest fear is being moon face.
Just recently, my cousin informed me, he noticed my beautiful dark thick head of hair has shown signs of thinning, patchy, and despite barbers telling me I will never go bald, here I am ****ting myself that I may lose it.
Guys, its been a rough last few years. If the acne hasn't been hard enough on myself concept, the scars, it was over a year and a half ago, I buried my sister and dad after a drunk driving accident. I was depressed before that cause of my skin. I was down and ****ty with those around me cause of how ****ed up my head was with obsessing over my skin. I feel a lot of guilt with them gone cause, I didn't show love, and the appreciation they deserved. It would seem every time I think my life cannot get any worse, it does, and it reveals itself shortly.
As of now, I can see my scalp in places, its patch thick needle like hair so, the slightest **** up haircut shows. I am scared of losing it all now. The plan is to try medication or preferably, dropping accutane as I have now, looking possibly into rogain or something, and maybe returning back to my natural path. I am hoping the side effects will reverse once I get off of it. Judging by the life I have had, the prayers going unanswered, and the circumstances I continue to find myself in, I highly doubt it but, I am hopeful. As of now, if I try hard enough and look, I can see my scalp by the crown and a bit by the side.
I see my dermatologist this week later on so, I am hopeful this will be resolved. If all else fails, I plan to buzz it, get a fade, maybe a short faux hawk or crew cut.
Tips? Advice?
