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Hey guys,
i am a 15 year old male, 10th grade in highschool. Over the year ive expirienced major hair loss and it has caused me a lot of anxiety ,depression and sometimes even suicidal thoughts.
Through this year i cut my hair shorter to apply minoxidil easier and started wearing a hat around (my school doesnt permit us wearing hats unless during sports) and alot of people have been staring at me and making rumors, i even got kids ive never seen before ask about my hair.
Ive never had a problem with self confidence and being comfortable with myself but hair loss especially at 15 has really sent me down a slump, ive disconected from all my friends and ive developed trust issues. I also never rarely go outside anymore.
People always told me that i would never have problems with girls being bald. My expiriences say something else, many girls have turned me down and especially this one girl who now just stares at me whenever i walk by. The hard truth is that all my friends and i knew hair loss would have this effect, its the nature of highschool.
My teachers dont seem to give a f*** either, recently my science teacher made a hairline joke right in front of me and some of my teachers wont even let me wear a hat, like i know its against the rules but dont they have a little understanding?
Im also less financially fortunate so affording to see doctors and dermatologist isn't easy, ive been working at my shitty job at kfc to save for dermatologist to tell me the same thing. This is making me dead broke and cant afford to go out with my friends even i wanted to.
I recently started going to the gym to compensate for my hair loss but truthfully i hate every bit of it and i feel trapped into doing these things now. I truthfully feel mentally imprisoned, everything feels heavier than it should be and ive lost alot of my passion for music. Im lucky to have a supportive big family who are willing to pay for my gym membership, but theres only so much they can do, theres only so much anyone can do, no one can change my shitty genetics.
I feel so guilty that there are so many people which love to trade positions with me, and im here complaining on the internet. My parents are refugees and my cousins still live in poverty, i feel so much guilt for even thinking of suicide, im too conflicted, ive been depressed, ive been at my all time low, can my thoughts and actions be justified?
Truthfully im burnt out, i dont feel like a kid, i feel like ive worked so hard to achieve so little, i feel like my parents worked too hard for me to complain, i often just stare into the mirror and cry, i feel broken, distraught, fustrated, i feel isolated, i feel like im just a joke to these other kids.
I dont feel passion for life anymore.
Thank you for reading,
i am a 15 year old male, 10th grade in highschool. Over the year ive expirienced major hair loss and it has caused me a lot of anxiety ,depression and sometimes even suicidal thoughts.
Through this year i cut my hair shorter to apply minoxidil easier and started wearing a hat around (my school doesnt permit us wearing hats unless during sports) and alot of people have been staring at me and making rumors, i even got kids ive never seen before ask about my hair.
Ive never had a problem with self confidence and being comfortable with myself but hair loss especially at 15 has really sent me down a slump, ive disconected from all my friends and ive developed trust issues. I also never rarely go outside anymore.
People always told me that i would never have problems with girls being bald. My expiriences say something else, many girls have turned me down and especially this one girl who now just stares at me whenever i walk by. The hard truth is that all my friends and i knew hair loss would have this effect, its the nature of highschool.
My teachers dont seem to give a f*** either, recently my science teacher made a hairline joke right in front of me and some of my teachers wont even let me wear a hat, like i know its against the rules but dont they have a little understanding?
Im also less financially fortunate so affording to see doctors and dermatologist isn't easy, ive been working at my shitty job at kfc to save for dermatologist to tell me the same thing. This is making me dead broke and cant afford to go out with my friends even i wanted to.
I recently started going to the gym to compensate for my hair loss but truthfully i hate every bit of it and i feel trapped into doing these things now. I truthfully feel mentally imprisoned, everything feels heavier than it should be and ive lost alot of my passion for music. Im lucky to have a supportive big family who are willing to pay for my gym membership, but theres only so much they can do, theres only so much anyone can do, no one can change my shitty genetics.
I feel so guilty that there are so many people which love to trade positions with me, and im here complaining on the internet. My parents are refugees and my cousins still live in poverty, i feel so much guilt for even thinking of suicide, im too conflicted, ive been depressed, ive been at my all time low, can my thoughts and actions be justified?
Truthfully im burnt out, i dont feel like a kid, i feel like ive worked so hard to achieve so little, i feel like my parents worked too hard for me to complain, i often just stare into the mirror and cry, i feel broken, distraught, fustrated, i feel isolated, i feel like im just a joke to these other kids.
I dont feel passion for life anymore.
Thank you for reading,
