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I'm sure you know that already, but I've experienced such a change in attitude towards myself within the last 2/3 years. The last time I had a free mind was October 2001 while in Vegas. To make things sound slightly comical, even the wind wasn’t an issue then because I had longish hair that wasn’t effected enough by male pattern baldness. I did know I had a little loss but it wasn’t appearance changing at all. I was very much in denial back then and was oblivious to what male pattern baldness or propecia were.
Two years and a bit later, things are hideous with my appearance. I'm sure you've read my past posts and seen my photos during my monthly propecia update. Since starting hairloss treatments a little under 8 months ago, my hair isn’t only a little worse - it's a lot worse. I didn’t have severe male pattern baldness at all. I didn’t seem to have anyway. :freaked:
On the social side, people used to always talk to me. Now it's me doing all the talking. Starting all the conversations and making extra effot. No one really seems interested anymore. My work colleagues hardly talk to me. I’m not asking for sympathy here but it’s very much the case. It never used to be like this though. They’re not bad people at all - I just find myself having to make the conversations just so it doesn’t become awkward or they think I'm not likeable or something. Besides I can’t afford to lose this job because it will be hard to get another. From 1997-early 2001 I got 4 of the 5 jobs I had interviews for. From early 02-summer 03 I went to 8 interviews only getting a job at the 8th attempt. You do the working out.
This gave me confirmation.
The sympathy from people is terrible.
Anyone experienced this? I sometimes see it on people faces. They kind of look at me and sympathise to themselves - "I’m glad I’m not him" kind of sympathy. I don't want people to feel sorry for me but It happens no matter what I do.
When I put a hat on, suddenly people start looking at me like a I don’t have the right to wear one. They think I'm doing it to cover my hairloss. Its feels awkward. Even though I would be wearing a hat because it's cold, they would presume that I'm covering my hairloss. I can see it in their faces.
2 years ago I didn't expect to be down this road. It’s a massive shock - which is the reason why this is so depressing. This isn’t a moan, it's more stating facts about what is going on. :x
Ever feel like a criminal? Oh it happens with me these days. I have never commit a crime of any sort but I'm sometime made to feel guilty, even though I don't know what for. A good looking murderer would be smiled at more then the balding young innocent guy. Crazy thing to say? maybe, maybe not.
The brave face:- I spend a lot of my time putting on a brave face just so other people don't think I'm sulking because of my obvious hairloss.
Ring any bells anyone?
People who do talk to me are usually by themselves when they do it. When they are with 2 or more people it's like they become embarrassed to be seen with the balding, funny looking lad, thus start to act funny. It's demoralising, but it's something I'm now getting used too after 2 years of depression and utter confusion.
The only thing that makes me smile throughout the day are those weird thoughts regarding a minoxidil bottle and a load of other crazy jokes to do with hairloss. My work mates must think I’m losing the plot when they see me cracking up for no reason.
Anyway, this is a brief experience of what I’ve witnessed since male pattern baldness.
I could go on for another 4 pages but I haven’t got time now
Two years and a bit later, things are hideous with my appearance. I'm sure you've read my past posts and seen my photos during my monthly propecia update. Since starting hairloss treatments a little under 8 months ago, my hair isn’t only a little worse - it's a lot worse. I didn’t have severe male pattern baldness at all. I didn’t seem to have anyway. :freaked:
On the social side, people used to always talk to me. Now it's me doing all the talking. Starting all the conversations and making extra effot. No one really seems interested anymore. My work colleagues hardly talk to me. I’m not asking for sympathy here but it’s very much the case. It never used to be like this though. They’re not bad people at all - I just find myself having to make the conversations just so it doesn’t become awkward or they think I'm not likeable or something. Besides I can’t afford to lose this job because it will be hard to get another. From 1997-early 2001 I got 4 of the 5 jobs I had interviews for. From early 02-summer 03 I went to 8 interviews only getting a job at the 8th attempt. You do the working out.
This gave me confirmation.
The sympathy from people is terrible.
Anyone experienced this? I sometimes see it on people faces. They kind of look at me and sympathise to themselves - "I’m glad I’m not him" kind of sympathy. I don't want people to feel sorry for me but It happens no matter what I do. When I put a hat on, suddenly people start looking at me like a I don’t have the right to wear one. They think I'm doing it to cover my hairloss. Its feels awkward. Even though I would be wearing a hat because it's cold, they would presume that I'm covering my hairloss. I can see it in their faces.
2 years ago I didn't expect to be down this road. It’s a massive shock - which is the reason why this is so depressing. This isn’t a moan, it's more stating facts about what is going on. :x
Ever feel like a criminal? Oh it happens with me these days. I have never commit a crime of any sort but I'm sometime made to feel guilty, even though I don't know what for. A good looking murderer would be smiled at more then the balding young innocent guy. Crazy thing to say? maybe, maybe not.
The brave face:- I spend a lot of my time putting on a brave face just so other people don't think I'm sulking because of my obvious hairloss.
Ring any bells anyone?
People who do talk to me are usually by themselves when they do it. When they are with 2 or more people it's like they become embarrassed to be seen with the balding, funny looking lad, thus start to act funny. It's demoralising, but it's something I'm now getting used too after 2 years of depression and utter confusion.
The only thing that makes me smile throughout the day are those weird thoughts regarding a minoxidil bottle and a load of other crazy jokes to do with hairloss. My work mates must think I’m losing the plot when they see me cracking up for no reason.
Anyway, this is a brief experience of what I’ve witnessed since male pattern baldness.
I could go on for another 4 pages but I haven’t got time now
