I need some advice, I'm so desperate.
I've recently turned 24 and I've been dealing with thinning hair ever since I turned 18. I was always a healthy girl with long and strong brown hair, I never noticed anything wrong with my hair, it was gorgeous. I started struggling with anxiety and mental ilness shortly after my grandfather's death, it was a really hard time and exactly a year after his death my long term boyfriend broke up with me, that drove me to depression, I locked myself in my room for two weeks and finally my mother convinced me to get out of bed and go to a doctor, when I looked into the mirror I noticed my hair looked thin, you could see the scalp, my ponytail wasn't as thick as it was two weeks before, this was the last straw, I had a terrible panic attack, all I said was that I was going bald, my mother had to call an ambulance and I spent some time at the psychiatric ward. There they finally listened to me and a dermatologist was called to see me, she confirmed that my hair was thin, said that stress could be the cause and prescribed me a three month treatment. I only did it for one month because after being released from the hospital I moved to another country and I couldn't find the prescribed medication in this new country I was living in. I accepted it, after all it wasn't that bad, just thinner than what it used to be. My self esteem was never the same anymore and my hair never went back to what it was. 6 years have passed and no changes in my hair until about a month ago, it's so thin that it can no longer be hidden, you can see that my part is really wide, my ponytail is so so thin and I don't know what's causing this, my mother said it could be seasonal shedding since we're in the middle of spring now but I don't think seasonal shedding would make my hair this thin, there's no way to hide it anymore, no matter what I do you can see my scalp, I don't know what to do, I'm so ashamed to go out, I'm suicidal, my anxiety levels are insane...
I've recently turned 24 and I've been dealing with thinning hair ever since I turned 18. I was always a healthy girl with long and strong brown hair, I never noticed anything wrong with my hair, it was gorgeous. I started struggling with anxiety and mental ilness shortly after my grandfather's death, it was a really hard time and exactly a year after his death my long term boyfriend broke up with me, that drove me to depression, I locked myself in my room for two weeks and finally my mother convinced me to get out of bed and go to a doctor, when I looked into the mirror I noticed my hair looked thin, you could see the scalp, my ponytail wasn't as thick as it was two weeks before, this was the last straw, I had a terrible panic attack, all I said was that I was going bald, my mother had to call an ambulance and I spent some time at the psychiatric ward. There they finally listened to me and a dermatologist was called to see me, she confirmed that my hair was thin, said that stress could be the cause and prescribed me a three month treatment. I only did it for one month because after being released from the hospital I moved to another country and I couldn't find the prescribed medication in this new country I was living in. I accepted it, after all it wasn't that bad, just thinner than what it used to be. My self esteem was never the same anymore and my hair never went back to what it was. 6 years have passed and no changes in my hair until about a month ago, it's so thin that it can no longer be hidden, you can see that my part is really wide, my ponytail is so so thin and I don't know what's causing this, my mother said it could be seasonal shedding since we're in the middle of spring now but I don't think seasonal shedding would make my hair this thin, there's no way to hide it anymore, no matter what I do you can see my scalp, I don't know what to do, I'm so ashamed to go out, I'm suicidal, my anxiety levels are insane...