I think you misunderstand. I do NOT have trichotillomania!!!
I do not pluck these hairs for fun or habit. My hairline started to thin really bad at the front so it was really see-through, that's why I started plucking the remaining hairs ONLY in that area.
But as time went on and more hair started to miniaturise and my hairline became thin looking again, I plucked a little further up. Only very little at a time.
I have also STOPPED plucking 2 months ago cause like I said, I cannot go any further up.
Still, it seems like my forehead is ever growing because of the balding process.
I wouldn't have plucked a single hair hadn't I been going bald. Plucking to even out my hairline helped me for many months to look better, but unfortunately it's not helping anymore cause the balding has gone too far.
BTW the hairs I plucked are still growing in, but the balding process is what is making them miniaturize and eventually dissapear.
If I hadn't plucked any in the first place my hairline would be completely see through by now so at least it bought me some time but wasn't gonna last forever.
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I find your type of hairloss weird because 1. you already tried everything and 2. You have a painfull (not a itchy) scalp so I am starting to think it is something else, the dokters should do a proper investigation what is wrong with your scalp instead of sending you on your way home...
btw is your scalp red, scaly, white pus, with pimples?
My scalp feels itchy but it is painful as well. The sensation is REALLY hard to describe, but my head feels dirty, crawling and infected. It feels like I have a sunburn that never goes away, and it's all oily and gross. The pain can be very strong sometimes to the point where I find it hard to sleep. It's also hard concentrating on anything else when the pain is this bad. Also my scalp feels very "hard", but IDK if this is normal? It feels harder then before, almost like there's hardly any skin layer if that makes any sense. Yes this sounds gross.
My scalp is not red, scaly or with pimples and puss. When you look at my scalp you don't see anything wrong, except it can be a little dry sometimes but not bad at all, like there's no visible flaking in my hair etc. The only thing is that it's oily.