Guys i'm broken. I made a huge mistake. I haven't had much experience with girls but over the last few years i've been looksmaxing. As a result, i've had some success off tinder, but only one night stand kind of things. Last October i met a girl off tinder who i actually liked talking to. She was one of those fitness/booty girls you see on instagram. Her face wasn't pretty but her body was nice and she was fun to talk to. I never really thought about having her as a gf, she had many red flags. - Always wore super revealing clothing (Showing bra every time) - Addicted to social media - Huge sexual past (pretty much a hoe) - Uneducated - Met off tinder Unfortunately, during the time i met her I got let go from my job and my self esteem was super low. As i was unemployed, i began talking to this girl and hanging out. We started going out a lot and all of a sudden we were bf and gf. This lasted until a month ago where she broke up with me. A day after breaking up with me she changed her mind and wanted to go back to dating. The next few weeks we hang out a bit but she is less responsible and i know she is banging other guys. Even when we hang out she is acting super nice to me and saying we should do X and Y in the future. Then a few days later she would just stop talking to me. I started getting obsessive and depressed by her shadiness. I used a fake account on instagram to message a guy who i had a feeling was banging her. He told me that he does fuck her and he simply messaged her off instgram to come over and bang (WTF!). I'm outraged. I send her a snippet of this conersation and telll her i'm worried i have an STD! She said that she doesn't do that stuff anymore and it was in the past (LIE). I'm furious and call her out on lying. She then tells me she is actually seeing someone. Out of jealous rage i threaten to blackmail her and she tells me. I stalk this guy on instagram and he is taller, better looking and NW1. I'm furious. She tells me to stop stalking this guy (My name appeared as having watched his instagram story) and tells me to fuck off. I apologise numerous times for threatening to blackmail her. I offer to call her to say sorry but she says no and deletes and blocks me on all platforms. As you can see i was really silly for threatening to black mail her but at the same time i was just so angry jealous and depressed. I can't believe i developed such an attachment to a lying sluty, trashy girl. At the same time i feel so sad and depressed about myself for being short and balding. I feel suicidal even. I can' stop thinking about her to. Obsessing about her. I'd empty my bank account just to have her over and validate me (love and affection and it's ok that i'm balding). Should we just give up if we are genetically inferior? sorry for the long post but here is the summary; - Never had a gf before but slept with a few girls - Met a girl off tinder - This girl was not a 'good girl' (big sexual past, social media addict, trashy , uneducated) - Lost my job and low self esteem - Started liking this girl and messaging her daily, seeing her weekly - Became GF and BF - Broke up with me - Changed mind and still wanted to date - Hung out, she was super into me still, talkig to me, saying she wants to do stuff in the future. - All of a sudden she stops. - Stalk her instagram and find out she is sleeping with another guy, do some investigation and this guy confirms. - Call her out on this but she lies to me. - Get more angry - Few days past, she tells me she is dating another guy - Threaten black mail unless she tells me who - Guy is tall white and NW1. - Feel pathetic and apologize for threatening black mail but feel suicial as my hair is fucked and this guy NW1 is chosen over me. - Can't stop thinking of her and my hair and feel depressed what to do?