Not looking for replies. Just some venting here.
Was born super ugly - bad skin, bad teeth and very weird eyes. I was everybody's punching bag, which destroyed my self-esteem. And so I finished high school with a mediocre degree.
I had my first girlfriend at age 21 and she was neither the best looking nor the brightest one. Scraping the barrel, really. Did not work out, so we split after 2 years or so.
Around that time I started balding. Got it from both sides. minoxidil did not work and from the brief period I took finasteride, I think my breasts got larger, so I quit that, too. I started to see hookers on a regular basis.
About 10 years later for a brief period I had a fantastic job that boosted my self esteem and around that time also found my wife that was both smart and good looking. And I thought "It cannot get better than this. This is the high point of my life." Very true.
Things fell apart both professionally and personally. My wife left me, I have no friends or family. With my job I barely scratch along. Now I am an NW6 in my mid fifties with decreasing health. Women my age ignore me and for younger ones I don't even exist.
For seven years I have been hitting the gym. Not one of girls there would have a conversation with me, let alone go out. I do not approach too often, in order to not come over as creepy. I rarely have eye contact and on the odd occasion I would talk to someone it never leads to anything.
Not exaggerating, I spend in 25 years about 300,000 $ in escorts and hookers and I cannot take it anymore. I am constantly angry at myself because I let myself being bullied so much. If I could have one wish, it would be to go back in time and beat that assholes in my school senseless.
That's it.
Was born super ugly - bad skin, bad teeth and very weird eyes. I was everybody's punching bag, which destroyed my self-esteem. And so I finished high school with a mediocre degree.
I had my first girlfriend at age 21 and she was neither the best looking nor the brightest one. Scraping the barrel, really. Did not work out, so we split after 2 years or so.
Around that time I started balding. Got it from both sides. minoxidil did not work and from the brief period I took finasteride, I think my breasts got larger, so I quit that, too. I started to see hookers on a regular basis.
About 10 years later for a brief period I had a fantastic job that boosted my self esteem and around that time also found my wife that was both smart and good looking. And I thought "It cannot get better than this. This is the high point of my life." Very true.
Things fell apart both professionally and personally. My wife left me, I have no friends or family. With my job I barely scratch along. Now I am an NW6 in my mid fifties with decreasing health. Women my age ignore me and for younger ones I don't even exist.
For seven years I have been hitting the gym. Not one of girls there would have a conversation with me, let alone go out. I do not approach too often, in order to not come over as creepy. I rarely have eye contact and on the odd occasion I would talk to someone it never leads to anything.
Not exaggerating, I spend in 25 years about 300,000 $ in escorts and hookers and I cannot take it anymore. I am constantly angry at myself because I let myself being bullied so much. If I could have one wish, it would be to go back in time and beat that assholes in my school senseless.
That's it.
