sounds like you need to seek help from a psychiatrist not an internet forum. You seem to have a very bleak outlook on life; not just your hair situation, life in general. Seeing an actual doctor would do you much better than taking advice from people on an internet forum.
i'm unsure of all your problems..but regardless you have it better than a lot of people on this planet. try looking at the positive side of things instead of just the negative. For example...you can read and write. You have access to the internet (which a lot of people on the planet do not). You are not starving. You have access to food, water, and doctors. Hell you even have enough money to blow on products to try and save your hair (which is not necessary to live). You say you dont speak properly; but there are people out there who cant see, hear, walk, or go the the restroom on their on. not to mention the people that don't have arms and hands to even type
Life is rough man, and it sure is unfair and unkind for most of the people on this planet. I agree with what Bob is saying, although it sometimes seem cliche to say so, but you must try to look at the things that you do have in your life. I know this is easier said than done but take a look at this: http://d.yimg.com/gg/u/aa0518b21b29e...9e465cf83.jpeg
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