I just can't take this much longer...

[ghg]

I have been depressed over my genetic flaws for my whole life I guess, but it was really when I realized that I was balding at little over 20 that I really sunk into depths of contemplating suicide. Since then almost every day of my life has been like torchery, I can't enjoy much of anything, there's just no joy in my life whatsoever. All the time I'm just thinking why, why the **** does it have to be me who has all the ridiculous flaws that I have? If there was a god surely he wouldn't curse any one person with genetic bull**** like this!? I just don't see a way out for me, it's been 6 years like this already and it's only getting worse along with the hair deterioration. I can't see myself being able to live as a full blown NW5/6, not that I'm very far from it now but at least I got some weak-ass hair growing on top. I know that suicide talk is a tabu of some sorts here, but I can tell you I haven't been far from it and I'm afraid that eventually it will come to that. Not that I'm proud of it or anything, but that's just the sad fact for me. I know I'll never be happy with all this stuff I was born with and living like this is so painful that I probably can't sustain it forever.

[Beingbaldsucksass]

Same here, people litterly HATE me

[Zeroman]

u ever think about fantasizing or drinking?

those two get me through life . . . . .

fantasize about being tall with good hair, the more you fantasize the better you get at it, i've been having dreams about having those two, and being a superhero as well

sure its depressing as fuk when you wake up but when you are having the dream its literally heaven

[backintime]

[slipy]

you post certainly made me think of my own personal situation

to be honest, yeah you have all the rights to complain and feel bad.

it could be worse though....
worse, if you were like me

not only do i have various aesthetic malformations (like you do), i also have a very poor health/diseases. i find it funny how many people abuse drugs/alcohol and whatnot but still maintain a decent health regardless, i never did any of those things untill my physical condition deteiriorated.

on the other hand though, i'd rather have decent hair and health problems not the other way around. i just feel theres no point to battle those other things anymore. what for? im rotten inside and now my physical appearence will match that.

i don't really consider suicide at the moment, but i do realize i'd be better off nonexistant. no more disease, no more hair loss, no more pain, no more loosing my mind as a result.

[Beingbaldsucksass]

Zeroman you sound like a complete dumbass with your seggestions of fantatizing and drinking, yhea a real solution to be a complete drunk lunatic living in dreams and denial, the perfect 1 way road to a nuthouse.

[LooseItAll]

Oh well. At least you have friends. Being a social reculse is the worst thing on earth

[Zeroman]

Oh well. At least you have friends. Being a social reculse is the worst thing on earth

not for me lol

i have a lot more friends ironically with hair loss than i did when i was teenager

id much MUCH rather go back to being nearly totally alone with good hair

the most important relationship one has is the one with themselves

and BBS, with what i'm doing its not like i am living in fantasy all day. i usually just do it at night before i sleep

and its easy to be moderate with the drinking too

[backintime]

id much MUCH rather go back to being nearly totally alone with good hair

the most important relationship one has is the one with themselves

I feel exactly the same way. I'm trying to regrow my hair mostly because I grew tired of avoiding mirrors and cameras soley because of my hairloss...I hate what has happened to my hair and subsequently, my self esteem.

[DASH!!!]

I'm the same as you.
I hate my life.